"I thought maybe it was honourable, for a while. Now... I think I just think it was selfish. It didn't actually do anything to stop the SQUIP. Jeremy just took over for me after I was in the hospital. And... I kept thinking if I died, it'd probably be a relief."

Is it strange to say that? Rich is almost certain it is. He looks away, still picking at the scars on his arm.

"I mean, if I had died... I wouldn't have to figure out how to get away from my dad, how to pay my hospital bills, how to make it up to everyone around me for dealing with the shittier version of me. If there even is a better version of me at all, right?"