"Yeah... There weren't no amount of money that woulda had me doin' it if I'd known."

But he still doesn't look at Devero, it's his way of hiding. Just staring somewhere else.

"Maybe if I'd been less of a dipshit at 'im... I got real defensive. Like somehow he didn't understand but- He got it. He did. I was just too stubborn to listen. So I guess that's what bothers me. My one real accomplishment that was all mine was protectin' one boy an' tryin' not to be hated too much."

He sighs.

"Messed that last one up too. So when I get kicked off the train? That's what I go back to."