"I.... I'm... what am I...."

Breaking. Breaking.

But if he's actually Shadow.. can't hurt him either... have to show I trust him... even if he can't accept love... have to....

Have to....

Father. Guru. Ascended.

The words swam like sharks around him, part of his mind even as they devoured it. He was shaking even as he was getting paler and paler. Hitting the breaking point at a hundred miles an hour and speeding up. Always speeding up.

Have to...