[although sizhui hasn't quite built up to that point yet, it'll come in due time, and actually rather shortly within their current conversation as it progresses. there's only so much people can take before they have some sort of break, after all, which he imagines has happened to other voidtreckers already.
frankly, jin ling would have a couple problems on his hands if sizhui lost control of his shapeshifting, not just dealing with an animal but also the unfortunately very nude boy that he'd turn back into once regathering himself, so! it's probably for the best that he's not as distraught as he was in that moment however many platforms ago it'd been. for now, silently to himself, he can just live vicariously through jin ling and his wolf appendages and, if he happens to be lucky enough, he'll simply grow his own ears or tail instead of becoming a full-on animal like last time when all those emotions became too overwhelming.
while jin ling's being so very patient with this space invasion, he's still more than welcome to tell sizhui to let go whenever he wants and he'll do it, no questions asked. maybe it's polite to let him commiserate in whatever ways he's most comfortable, this doesn't mean lan sizhui's alright with making someone else feel uneasy just because he wants to be clingy. if anything, he's got fairy too, who doesn't seem to mind giving him attention at all, which he's basking in.]
Good girl, [he murmurs encouragingly, letting her go right on ahead and continue licking him, which works out in jin ling's favor somewhat, given sizhui does briefly let him go so he can use both hands to gently pet fairy's ears, face and muzzle. at least this means he's also fleeting distracted from the whole reason he'd climbed into jin ling's bunk in the first place, but hearing the other boy's voice has him refocusing, head craning in jin ling's direction, leaving enough room for the dog to continue kissing his cheek while he's petting her.
though sizhui cannot see jin ling properly, hearing him even offer such a thing has his own features creasing too. not in a bad way, necessarily, but more in an upset, disappointed sort of manner.]
I'm just... [he peters-out, trying to find the proper words for how he feels about everything that's happened (and everything that will eventually happen too), before deciding:]So tired of people leaving, not being able to do anything about it and us still being stuck here with no real way to go back to our worlds.
[...which is a whole lot more than he was thinking he'd say, but there it is anyway.
perhaps it's good fairy just keeps right on licking his face because now that he's thinking about it all again, more tears have welled up in his eyes, and despite reaching a hand to wipe them away, he isn't quick enough to stop some from running down his cheeks. he takes a slow, measured inhale, holds it for a few seconds then sighs shakily.] As selfish as it sounds, I want to keep people here on the train rather than watch them walk off and disappear to who knows where every two weeks.
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frankly, jin ling would have a couple problems on his hands if sizhui lost control of his shapeshifting, not just dealing with an animal but also the unfortunately very nude boy that he'd turn back into once regathering himself, so! it's probably for the best that he's not as distraught as he was in that moment however many platforms ago it'd been. for now, silently to himself, he can just live vicariously through jin ling and his wolf appendages and, if he happens to be lucky enough, he'll simply grow his own ears or tail instead of becoming a full-on animal like last time when all those emotions became too overwhelming.
while jin ling's being so very patient with this space invasion, he's still more than welcome to tell sizhui to let go whenever he wants and he'll do it, no questions asked. maybe it's polite to let him commiserate in whatever ways he's most comfortable, this doesn't mean lan sizhui's alright with making someone else feel uneasy just because he wants to be clingy. if anything, he's got fairy too, who doesn't seem to mind giving him attention at all, which he's basking in.]
Good girl, [he murmurs encouragingly, letting her go right on ahead and continue licking him, which works out in jin ling's favor somewhat, given sizhui does briefly let him go so he can use both hands to gently pet fairy's ears, face and muzzle. at least this means he's also fleeting distracted from the whole reason he'd climbed into jin ling's bunk in the first place, but hearing the other boy's voice has him refocusing, head craning in jin ling's direction, leaving enough room for the dog to continue kissing his cheek while he's petting her.
though sizhui cannot see jin ling properly, hearing him even offer such a thing has his own features creasing too. not in a bad way, necessarily, but more in an upset, disappointed sort of manner.]
I'm just... [he peters-out, trying to find the proper words for how he feels about everything that's happened (and everything that will eventually happen too), before deciding:] So tired of people leaving, not being able to do anything about it and us still being stuck here with no real way to go back to our worlds.
[...which is a whole lot more than he was thinking he'd say, but there it is anyway.
perhaps it's good fairy just keeps right on licking his face because now that he's thinking about it all again, more tears have welled up in his eyes, and despite reaching a hand to wipe them away, he isn't quick enough to stop some from running down his cheeks. he takes a slow, measured inhale, holds it for a few seconds then sighs shakily.] As selfish as it sounds, I want to keep people here on the train rather than watch them walk off and disappear to who knows where every two weeks.