Jiang Cheng should be thankful for the forethought of Lan Xichen trying to ease this for him, but it has the poor side effect of making him feel like a complete idiot.
Knowing that they want similar things doesn't make life too much easier for a man who has spent his life feeling a sense of longing and not being aware of what to do with it: he has never had much of any kind of relationship, and the affection he had held for Wen Qing had been doomed from the start. This is different - it is real, and right in front of him, but he doesn't know what to do.
He wonders how much experience Xichen has, and it makes his mouth drop open before he grits his teeth, forcing the strange feeling of embarrassment away.
"No. You have understood me well enough, I don't think I need to say anymore." Why run the risk of making even more of a fool of himself? His fingers twitch absently around his teacup as he places it to one side, his eyes not really able to lift to look at Xichen.
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Knowing that they want similar things doesn't make life too much easier for a man who has spent his life feeling a sense of longing and not being aware of what to do with it: he has never had much of any kind of relationship, and the affection he had held for Wen Qing had been doomed from the start. This is different - it is real, and right in front of him, but he doesn't know what to do.
He wonders how much experience Xichen has, and it makes his mouth drop open before he grits his teeth, forcing the strange feeling of embarrassment away.
"No. You have understood me well enough, I don't think I need to say anymore." Why run the risk of making even more of a fool of himself? His fingers twitch absently around his teacup as he places it to one side, his eyes not really able to lift to look at Xichen.
He must look stupid.
"I'm glad."