Again, reluctantly, Nita pulls back, so they can see each other's faces.
"But - the whole point of the Oath is that the wizard has to believe whatever they're doing is the best possible thing they can do for whatever Life they're interacting with at the time. Even the times where I wasn't sure to start if I was doing the right thing, something would come along to force the issue... and then it'd turn out all right, for everyone involved, if sometimes bittersweet-"
Nita cuts herself off, but the intent is clear: this was the first time in her life where she could clearly say what she'd done hadn't been called for.
"But, this time, while I wasn't doing it just to cause pain, the spell didn't help. I was angry enough that while I thought it was necessary, I didn't care if it was the best thing. And when you're planning on rooting around in someone else's mind-!"
Nita grits her teeth, gaze lowering forcefully, just away.
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Again, reluctantly, Nita pulls back, so they can see each other's faces.
"But - the whole point of the Oath is that the wizard has to believe whatever they're doing is the best possible thing they can do for whatever Life they're interacting with at the time. Even the times where I wasn't sure to start if I was doing the right thing, something would come along to force the issue... and then it'd turn out all right, for everyone involved, if sometimes bittersweet-"
Nita cuts herself off, but the intent is clear: this was the first time in her life where she could clearly say what she'd done hadn't been called for.
"But, this time, while I wasn't doing it just to cause pain, the spell didn't help. I was angry enough that while I thought it was necessary, I didn't care if it was the best thing. And when you're planning on rooting around in someone else's mind-!"
Nita grits her teeth, gaze lowering forcefully, just away.