It took Nita some time to pick up the thread again, without a prompt from Kitty, but she managed.

"And I've never used psychotropics before while I've been here - I only attempted to use them in Nautilus, the other place I'd been, when I was literally not in my right mind. And back home, I only used them when I felt there was no other choice, and I still worried the whole time because what I was seeing was private."

It all felt a bit like babble to her, now, but she pressed on.

"So, when I saw Sven's name was yellow, I guess I just... snapped. And doing psychotropic wizardries, just because you're angry..."

She shook her head.

"That's not the person I normally am. Or the person I want to be, even."