unfavorableinstigation: It is dark, but Nita is inside reading a book. (Dark)
unfavorableinstigation ([personal profile] unfavorableinstigation) wrote in [community profile] voidtreckerexpress2020-08-02 09:15 am

I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take.

Who: Nita and YOU. Preferably close CR, but anyone can stop by.
Where: Quiet Car, second floor, a room near the front of the carriage.
When: Middle half of Grasshopper; post-platform, pre-event.
What: A(n ex-) wizard retreats. Some may come to reprimand, some to console, some just to find out WTF happened.
Warnings: ... Discussion of what's basically psychic assault in this log, folks. Mind your headspace!


After the platform, Nita retreated into herself. That was the best way to describe it; she could not be 'booked' in one of these rooms the same way she could have been in the Medical Car, but she spent as much time as she could in just the one room, not speaking unless spoken to, not leaving except to go to the restroom or fetch another journal.

No matter when one arrived to check on her, she would be either resting - staring off into space more than actually sleeping - or writing.

Some of the words were crossed out, as if she had had a tough time finding the right ones, but the writing looked to be formal in nature. A report. And, most notably, it was in English, not the alien curves of the Speech.

If she had to live with her actions, Nita figured, the least she could do was explain them - and explain why they were wrong.

Mostly, though, what encompassed her mind was the emptiness of it all. She couldn't even be angry now.

Fitting.
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-06 11:49 pm (UTC)(link)
To be honest, she hadn't been sure. While people had talked about the train being sentient before, she hadn't thought anyone could actually use mental attacks on it. Hearing Nita confirm that the train was actually sentient now though didn't exactly surprise her.

What really surprised her was that Nita was the one doing it at all.

"But why were you attacking the train in the first place?"
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-06 11:59 pm (UTC)(link)
She ran the name through mind for a moment, then shook her head.

"No, I don't think I did. I'm sorry to hear that though." She knew about people disappearing, but she could only guess how difficult that could be for some people. "Were you two very close?"
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-07 07:51 am (UTC)(link)
"Hey, Nita, it's okay," Kitty tried to soothe her, placing a gentle hand on Nita's arm. "Let's just take a breath, and if you want I can try to help you figure things out. Okay?"
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-08 10:14 am (UTC)(link)
She nodded encouragingly. "Sounds good. Take your time."
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-10 08:19 am (UTC)(link)
Kitty could definitely understand some of that, even if it wasn't entirely the same. Even back home, she did find her sleep schedule slightly off after a mission, and a week of school never really helped that much. And while she hadn't lost a lot of people, she could relate to the pain of losing someone, and she couldn't imagine what it was like to go through that more than once.

So instead of answering, she simply nodded, urging the other teen to continue.
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-12 07:38 am (UTC)(link)
She waited patiently, letting Nita take her own time. And as she spoke, she nodded.

"Sometimes, grief can make us do things we wouldn't normally do. I don't think anyone will judge you for that."

She wouldn't, at least.
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-13 07:50 am (UTC)(link)
"Ah..." She could understand that too. "Well...what do you usually do when you're angry? Even if you don't usually get as angry as this."
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-14 10:25 am (UTC)(link)
"Why do you need to defend someone when you're angry?"

Not that it was a bad thing to do.
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-16 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well...yeah, anger can be a good thing. But needing someone else to work through it can make it harder to deal with, even if you are using it for something good. Even having to be productive with your anger all the time can make things difficult."
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Probably yeah

[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-17 08:45 am (UTC)(link)
"Well I know. I'm not saying that you are. It's just...well, being able to work through your anger can take practice, just like anything else. And sometimes it can be harder to do that if you focus on others on the occasions that you do get angry."

Still, she didn't want to upset Nita any further. "But yeah, maybe just take a bit more time."
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[personal profile] goingthroughaphase 2020-08-18 06:05 am (UTC)(link)
Kitty picked up on some of that, at least, and she hoped her smile was enough of a reassurance to show that she wasn't going anywhere.

"Of course. Just let me know if you need anything, okay?"