He doesn't know if they're really going in circles, but it feels like it. Nita doesn't want to agree with him, what he's doing--that's about what he expects. And whether that's true or not either...

"Look, Nita... this is my own mess. And this is the way I want to handle it. ... I'm sorry I was ever any other way."

That he made so many connections in the first place, put himself out there. But that was the reason he was selfish; thought about himself. Didn't think about his decisions and how they affected everyone else in the first place.