"Actually, I'm.. sort of on a limited timespan the moment I go home."

It's not something he's confessed to a lot of people. It feels too self-indulgent, too much attention aimed at his own misery, when all he wants to do is make people worry less.

But he feels like his dumb, dumb behaviour isn't explained very well without Nita being aware of this. Aware of why he tries to cling to everything so badly, to dumb extremes. Aware of just why giving up is so tempting.

"Soon enough I won't have anything anymore. My world, my family, my name, my identity.. They will all belong to someone else. I'll be no one from nowhere."