Honestly, this probably is the best possible setting for Inigo to talk about this sort of thing. Any place or occasion other than this one would make it too hard. It'd make him worried about who could see, it'd make him worried about being too openly vulnerable, about worrying Roland, about so many things.
But it's harder like this. Because he really does find solace in Roland's embrace. In just lying here with him, bodies pressed together, sharing warmth. Roland's arms around his back, keeping him close. The blanket still wrapped around him. It makes everything feel so warm, and it melts his heart to a point where he can't hold back anything anymore out of some dumb fear or worry. Like the words and feelings already ooze out of him before Inigo can stop it in the slightest.
"I.."
His voice sounds thick, in that way it always does before Inigo cries. But he can't help it. If there's anything that makes him emotional, it's the thought of Yuki, no matter how far down he's shoved those feelings, determined to not bother anyone with them anymore after that initial breakdown he had over the other's disappearance.
He doesn't want to go anywhere right now, that's for sure. But maybe.. maybe he should talk about Yuki, even if it's hard. Maybe he should let Roland know at least some things, considering Inigo sometimes feels like he's the only person left on this train to remember the guy he loved.
"I just wish.. I knew if they were safely back at home now." It may be the one thing that bothers him the most about this train. The fact that it won't even let them know that much, that it'll just let people walk off the train like zombies without them clearly returning home. "I asked the train before, you know-- multiple times, but it just.. It never answered."
He sniffs, and he latches onto Roland a bit tighter, as if to steady himself.
"Y-Yuki, he had.. He had a girl who liked him back home, waiting for him. Waiting for him to tell how he felt about her. I.. I wonder if they're together instead now."
Inigo's breath hitches, unable to stop the tears as they start to flow.
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But it's harder like this. Because he really does find solace in Roland's embrace. In just lying here with him, bodies pressed together, sharing warmth. Roland's arms around his back, keeping him close. The blanket still wrapped around him. It makes everything feel so warm, and it melts his heart to a point where he can't hold back anything anymore out of some dumb fear or worry. Like the words and feelings already ooze out of him before Inigo can stop it in the slightest.
"I.."
His voice sounds thick, in that way it always does before Inigo cries. But he can't help it. If there's anything that makes him emotional, it's the thought of Yuki, no matter how far down he's shoved those feelings, determined to not bother anyone with them anymore after that initial breakdown he had over the other's disappearance.
He doesn't want to go anywhere right now, that's for sure. But maybe.. maybe he should talk about Yuki, even if it's hard. Maybe he should let Roland know at least some things, considering Inigo sometimes feels like he's the only person left on this train to remember the guy he loved.
"I just wish.. I knew if they were safely back at home now." It may be the one thing that bothers him the most about this train. The fact that it won't even let them know that much, that it'll just let people walk off the train like zombies without them clearly returning home. "I asked the train before, you know-- multiple times, but it just.. It never answered."
He sniffs, and he latches onto Roland a bit tighter, as if to steady himself.
"Y-Yuki, he had.. He had a girl who liked him back home, waiting for him. Waiting for him to tell how he felt about her. I.. I wonder if they're together instead now."
Inigo's breath hitches, unable to stop the tears as they start to flow.
"I wonder if they're happy.."
Without him.