Those words are the one thing he can cling on to. And to some point Inigo knows it isn't healthy, or that at the very least it's risky here on the train. Because Roland, and the 'we' Roland speaks of.. It's not a given that they'll be around forever either. They could end up just like Yuki one day. Just like Gerome, just like Bucky. Walking off the platform without sparing him even a single look.

How would he be able to bear it if it was Roland? How would it not feel like the ground was crumbling away underneath his feet?

Not wanting to think about it, Inigo tries to move even closer to Roland, like he's burying himself against the other. Like that may be able to keep him here.

But the question - that's where he shakes his head.

"No, I.. I don't think I want to." It's said so quietly. Less interrupted by his tears, but somehow more fragile than before. "I know.. it isn't right. But a part of me just wants to think about him as little as possible.. Because it hurts so much when I do think of him."

Like a thorn in his heart that he can't pull out, no matter how hard he tries. That was exactly why he had been so worried back during the voidstorm. Seeing Yuki in that spirit-like form would have reactivated the pain all over again.

"I'm a bad person, aren't I, father.."