"It's nothing. It's not... worth it. It was my own damn fault." He's just caught up in making excuses. It's easier to just dismiss this as stupid than listen to anyone saying the contrary... even if he does appreciate that help.

He grabs for the water and takes a small swig of it, and that helps him slow his breathing just a bit too... through his mouth, so he can't smell the smoke as intensely.

"Can we just get out of here? Smells like... it just smells."