Being easy on yourself? Trusting in friendship without constantly worrying all the time? Those sounds like concepts that are very, very fake to Inigo. It's why he's struggling with all this - trying to express the anxious thoughts that keep twirling around in his mind, but unable to find the right words for it in any way that feels productive.
"I told you before that this is new to me." There's a hint of a whine to it, though not dramatical or playful like usually when they talk. It's more just frustration - for not being able to express himself well enough here. "I've never had it like this before. So I worry about doing something dumb and losing our friendship, or not being a good enough friend. I can't just stop that. It just happens."
It feels a little self-pitying to say, but he doesn't know how else to put it, how to explain it, considering his brain seems to work in ways very different from Tidus's own - though that's not exactly a new discovery.
At least he is trying to glance sideways at Tidus when he speaks now, rather than continuing to look away from him.
"So I'm-- I'm just trying my best. Trying to figure out what I can do for you when you feel bad." But that uphill battle - it gets to Inigo. He's pretty sure his attempt this time was at least better than the time he gave Tidus a little too much space right before the mission on Irivar, when it felt like he almost let it all fall apart altogether. "But arguing back there didn't feel good to me."
Even though Tidus is suggesting it now - or rather, expressing a hope he had. But Inigo truly can't see it ending in anything but his own tears, knowing how easily it'd just make him worry more.
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"I told you before that this is new to me." There's a hint of a whine to it, though not dramatical or playful like usually when they talk. It's more just frustration - for not being able to express himself well enough here. "I've never had it like this before. So I worry about doing something dumb and losing our friendship, or not being a good enough friend. I can't just stop that. It just happens."
It feels a little self-pitying to say, but he doesn't know how else to put it, how to explain it, considering his brain seems to work in ways very different from Tidus's own - though that's not exactly a new discovery.
At least he is trying to glance sideways at Tidus when he speaks now, rather than continuing to look away from him.
"So I'm-- I'm just trying my best. Trying to figure out what I can do for you when you feel bad." But that uphill battle - it gets to Inigo. He's pretty sure his attempt this time was at least better than the time he gave Tidus a little too much space right before the mission on Irivar, when it felt like he almost let it all fall apart altogether. "But arguing back there didn't feel good to me."
Even though Tidus is suggesting it now - or rather, expressing a hope he had. But Inigo truly can't see it ending in anything but his own tears, knowing how easily it'd just make him worry more.