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a man for flowers ✿ ( INIGO ) ([personal profile] flatteries) wrote in [community profile] voidtreckerexpress2020-12-11 11:10 pm

(open) my heart is about to jump out of my chest

Who: Inigo and you!
Where: The upper level of the music carriage
When: Imagination 19/20
What: Inigo thinks he's having a private dance practice moment. Thinks.
Warnings: Probably nothing, will edit if necessary.

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(open to all)

If you happen to pass through the music carriage today - as people usually do when moving through the train - you may notice something. Either you can hear music coming from the upper floor, drawing your attention, or if you have a good heart, you may instead see an odd little creature sitting on the stairs, swaying from side to side along with the music.

If you decide to go upstairs, the creature certainly won't do anything to stop you, if you can see it. In fact, it seems to happily bounce right after you, following you up.

And upstairs the carriage is mostly empty - except for Inigo standing on the stage, dancing. The music is even more audible now. Inigo is dancing along to the beat, eyes closed, yet he doesn't seem to even come close to falling off the stage, as if he knows exactly where to place his feet. Which he probably does, considering his movements seem to be very fluid, practiced. It's a pretty captivating dance, honestly, and it's easy to just keep watching it without realising the time is passing until the song stops.

It's then that Inigo stops moving too, finally opening his eyes..

.. and therefore finally noticing that he's not alone. He lets out an absolute shriek, staring you straight in the eyes, before his foot slips and he finally ends up falling on the stage.

Temporary elegance gone. There is only a miserable little pile of Inigo on the stage now.

(closed to taiki)

Okay, okay. Maybe he just needs to get used to dancing in front of people. He danced in front of Tidus before, and that was only.. only mildly mortifying, so maybe that's what he should do. Make sure to dance in front of people he feels a bit more comfortable with.

Hence why Inigo gently dragged (read: made puppy eyes at until he gave in) Taiki along here. He said it was fine if Taiki would just sit there and paint or something, do whatever he feels like doing! It's just that Inigo has to get used to having an audience, okay! And Taiki is just about the most gentle person Inigo can think of for this sort of thing.

But thinking of that is one thing. The actual execution of this plan is another thing.

Which is why they're both here now, but rather than dancing, Inigo just sitting there on the stage, slumped over, groaning. His face is buried in his hands.

"Why is it so hard to get started when someone else is looking.." Is he whining to Taiki? To himself? Who knows.
blitzcheer: (don't trust my dad)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-26 09:27 pm (UTC)(link)
Chin tilted, Tidus has no choice but to look up. Unwilling to fight otherwise, and the thought of turning away not immediately coming to mind. Inigo's thumbs against his skin, fingers pushed into his hair.

And words that weigh heavy on his heart.

Tidus sits with his arms still around Inigo, hands near the small of his back. Listening, eyes falling aside eventually, but not with any sharp pull or attempt to mask his emotions. But it's a lot, too, to look into those eyes and that honesty. A shyness not quite flushed, not quite embarrassed. He gets it though, what Inigo is saying.

'It's.. dumb and childish. I know.'

"It's not," he protests, mild of one as it is. "I don't think so. We don't want our friends to hurt... I don't want you getting hurt thinking you can't help me," he admits, spoken softer than the rest. His words falling into a silence, just for a moment. Eyes on the fabric of Inigo's shirt, taking some comfort in an otherwise peculiar position.

"I've been thinking a lot about it; what I did back in Spira, and what's going on now. It's... - as hard as it's been telling myself, it isn't the same. It's not. Because no one here has to disappear. You don't have to, so long as we keep the train safe."

As long as nothing risks it. And so far, nothing has. None of their attacks, none of their attempts to get into the engine room. There's nothing to be afraid of, outside or in.

"And I'm not the only one now. I kept it a secret before - I didn't tell anyone what would happen. Yuna, Wakka, Lulu... Auron knew, but he's that kind of guy. He always knew something was gonna happen. I couldn't keep a thing from him."

Tidus's head dips, the slither of mirth barely breathed into his latter words. The memory of Auron, that grumpy, old guy. Everything that was so long ago. For a life of his long gone.

"But..." But- the words he's trying to say, the point he wants to make. "I'm not alone. It's not just my choice. I don't... I don't have to hide it, what'll happen."

And that means a lot, because it means-

"You don't have to disappear." He says it out loud, just to hear himself. Swallowing, voice cleared just to make it so. A hand coming around from Inigo's back to hold one of his arms. Tidus's gaze going back up; brow drawn, lips slightly trembling, but something on a smile trying to be.

"I want you to go back, that's all I want." Firmer, his hold tightening, but without digging in. "Anyone, everyone who wants to leave. I want you to make it home, wherever you want to be. If we can make that happen... if we still try for it..."

He looks back at the arm that he's holding. Silence for a moment by the lump in his throat, hoping that the words he's spoken already say everything he wants to say.

Then I'll keep fighting. Then I have a reason to keep going.
blitzcheer: (when the blush go hard)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-27 02:17 pm (UTC)(link)
Tidus doesn't move back right away. He lets them hold like this, foreheads plush against one another, the gesture that Inigo seemingly wanted to be in. A small silence, before Tidus pulls back his head, sinking his head lower, nose near level to Inigo's collarbone.

"Why do all my friends talk like they never give me anything? Don't you know how much you mean to me? Why?"

'Why you mean so much to me?' They're not words spoken in frustration nor chiding, though there's some level of disbelief, of uncertainty tucked in them. He can never understand, if its the insecurities that his friends carry or if its that Tidus doesn't show well enough the happiness his friends bring him in return. That he doesn't need them to be like him - always loud, always impatient; frigid to accepting innocent, friendly male affection, to never just being accepting of so many things in first place?

"I'm not...as selfless as you make me out to be. You know? If I... if I could go home, I would."

And they're hard words to speak, a true honesty to admit. His mouth hurts, aches even, a ghost of a pain. Or perhaps more truthfully, it's all an anxiety close to turning physical. A truth he's never really wanted to admit, even to himself.

Home. To Spira. To Yuna, to everyone...

It's too close though, to a conversation repeated, to a conversation he doesn't want to have right now. Shaking his head, forcing himself to speak when he doesn't want to, an apprehensive rush carrying him along.

"But I can't think about that now. I need to think about-- everyone. I want to focus on what we can do. I can't think about the past."
blitzcheer: (eyyyyy summoner)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-27 08:59 pm (UTC)(link)
"Stop it."

It comes, once Tidus takes a hold of both of Inigo's forearms. His gaze coming back up to meet his, his direction closer to a plea than a demand, but a chiding too. The hold he takes of Inigo steady, as well as his eyes. The first thing that's gotten him to be so steady since they became drawn into this conversation.

"You're my friend, Inigo. If I make you feel like you do nothing for me, and it's somethin' I'm saying, then- just punch me in the jaw and say it!"

Cue mimicking a light jab in the air between them. It may be a little dramatic, but look, maybe he's feeling like it's deserved for the offence, alright.

"I never want you to think that! I know I've been a pain lately, and I know it hasn't been the first time. But I appreciate you, Inigo. You put up with me, and you're there for me, and we're everything that friends should be! What am I gonna do if anything happened to you? Who'm I gonna spend everyday with then?"

He lets out a breath behind his mouth, shoulders sagging a little. His thumbs rubbing slow, massaging circles.

"I told Taiki too... that I don't want anyone else but my friends. You, the Inigo I know. You're the guys for me. I wouldn't have it any other way, you know?"
blitzcheer: (you take what you can)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-28 02:02 pm (UTC)(link)
Tidus frowns, his entire face, a paused moment as he tries to take in what Inigo's saying. And yet-

"But that's not true. That's not true at all." He lets his shoulders ease, taking his eyes away from the past he was looking into, raising them to look at Inigo instead. "You've cheered me up plenty. Yeah, I got mad, but I wasn't really mad at you, you know? It was just-" ugh, what even did they speak about back then...? "I'm just never good at feeling like we don't have a choice. Or- I was just complaining. You asked me why I wasn't training, and it was 'cause... I hated the idea, feeling like I was just doing what the train wanted me to. Because we are. For all the good we're doing - we're doing exactly what this train wants. We even know that for sure now."

For sure, for certain. Tidus lets Inigo's arms go, not sure where to put his hands after. So he lets them sit awkwardly at his sides.

"I'm not mad that we're helping people, but... I... I don't really have anything. 'Cept sports. And I guess I was feeling, you know..."

He trails, trying to figure how to phrase it.

"I wanted to be more than a fighter. I wanted to- be useful, here. Something that distracted me and made me feel good."
blitzcheer: (very gud thinker)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-29 02:48 pm (UTC)(link)
This is a level of... little self-worth Tidus doesn't know how to deal with. At least, his thoughts can't decide between battling with that apparent information and the memory he had of that ruined pyjama party. There's less time for his brain to think anything about Inigo climbing off his lap, Not that it's a bad move, but it does sure feel and look different, to not have Inigo directly there in front of him.

He runs both of his hands through his hair at the sides, sighing some. Trying to think of where to begin, what to even say. Especially when it feels like some of the stuff he says goes through one ear and out the other.

"You know... I was hoping you would argue with me, or get angry with me. 'Least, I remember getting really into it?" uhh- "But that's not a problem with you," Tidus goes on to say, shedding off the uncertainty, trying to bring it back to a reassurance.

"You need to be easy on yourself! Trust in our friendship--in us more!" He turns to Inigo, shifting up a knee some even, to better face him. Knocking him gently with a fist on the arm. "You think things getting awkward once throws out all the rest? Didn't I tell you before? What's a few stupid moments for everything else you get? That's friendship!"
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[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-29 07:15 pm (UTC)(link)
"That's why I stopped!" It's earnest, like the two of them meeting somewhere in whatever this can be considered.

"I know you didn't want to fight, so that's why - I didn't know how to turn it around and be any better right then. And that wasn't on you to do, we just needed some time." He pauses, then admits with his head nodding. "I should've said sorry the next morning. But I... I got the wrong idea too. I thought you didn't want to talk about it or it'd be better... I know you were doing your best, you know? It meant a lot to me. It did."

He lifts his head to look at Inigo, though he isn't sure what to offer in the look. It was a mess, and here they were, trying finally to clear up the pieces. A mess that one of them has no idea how to assess the damage done, and another who's never been good at explaining things in his life.

"Friendship is... people are a mess," he decides. "We make each other feel bad when we don't mean to, and we get all sorts of crazy ideas what the other means. You never know what argument you're going to get into with one person, or- you never argue with another 'cause she's always got a cool head and knows the right thing to say so all you can do is grumble 'til you forget the whole thing!"

He's waving his hands some as he speaks, since of course he does.

"What I'm trying to say is... it's okay if you don't have the answers. That doesn't make you a bad friend. I shouldn't have tried to start an argument in the first place." Or not try to make an argument where there wasn't one.

"But- don't think you make things worse for me, or you're not the right kind of friend. Even if you're struggling, or you're not used to this- that's never true. Alright?" Tidus looks at Inigo more sure now. "That's the one thing I'm asking. You wouldn't agree if I said that to you, would you? It's just not true, Inigo."
blitzcheer: (chatter chatter)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-30 04:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well... we can say I was being a tiny pain. Right?"

He means it as a joke, frames it in no other way as Tidus meets Inigo's eye, gives him an expressing meaning to appeal, his smile small but important for selling the effect.

You're totally sold on this compromise, right Inigo??? Inigo?
blitzcheer: (ummmooo)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2020-12-31 07:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Tidus watches Inigo with that dumb face, smiling and hopeful and goading, all in one. Small 'hmms?' if he has to wait too long, just to give him any extra leverage to make sure those scales of Inigo's mood don't tip into insecurity.

And the smile that lifts itself onto Inigo's face is promising, brightening Tidus's with it. The guy waiting on any words, a laugh, a chide. Anything--

--but a kiss.

Or, a peck. Something like that. Still a kiss, right? Even if it takes Tidus a second to realise, blinking, registering the small touch. And Inigo's already moving back, cheerful and silly.

How is Tidus supposed to take it for anything other than the goof it is? The embarrassment he might've been about to feel dying easily down, a joking huff let out as Tidus leans back in his own seat.

"Weird way of being a pain!" His shoulders lift, something of a shrug. "If that's all it takes to get into your good books-"

But he doesn't finish it. Doesn't need to, right? Instead, Tidus gives Inigo a light punch to the arm.

"Cool. We're even! That means I can get you to read the books now, right? They weren't what I wanted, but there's a swimming magazine there that's alright. The blue one."

Inigo moved them, so Tidus nods over to where they've been placed now. See, see?
blitzcheer: (meerrrrily merrily meerrrily)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2021-01-01 11:02 am (UTC)(link)
"What, and a book on trains too?" The subtlety continues to fly over Tidus's head, a small huff let go of. "I just ordered whatever at random, or I'd be waiting forever to get them! Those're what the train gave me. They never have any life magazines..."

Look, maybe Tidus just wants to read about blitzball and upcoming events and the new hot tunes coming out. Is that so wrong? He'll grumble about them as he wants.

But also, lifting his hands up, held as if there's something in them as they hover by his face.

"Try smelling it. --Go on," he figures he'll have to add, 'cause who is going to take that suggestion over a magazine? But Tidus might be in a good place to nudge it in the direction of Inigo's nose. "It's perfume-y. Right? You smell it?"
blitzcheer: (full blast blush bro)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2021-01-01 03:24 pm (UTC)(link)
Bro?!!?

"Is your nose broken? I'm gonna notice a smell! It got on my fingers!"

Rather, he rubbed his nose with the side of his finger and then caught a whiff of something odd, which led him finally to the sniffing of books. None of which needs to be explained in the slightest to this dweeb!!! Just be glad Tidus isn't shoving his hand in your face now, bro.

Instead, he's grabbing for the diving magazine. Yoink!

"You see what you think. I didn't care 'bout it - it's just about breathing techniques and how to be all relaxing." Ugh. Boriiiing. "This one's cool. It's about a whole people and what their world's like! They wear shells that look like some of the one's I've seen. Even squiggly ones!"

Also, the book has a lot of cool spreads with big nice pictures. Just what a guy like Tidus likes!
blitzcheer: (it's sunny suny sunny)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2021-01-01 08:23 pm (UTC)(link)
"Here-- see?"

Tidus doesn't nudge Inigo as he comes to rest on him. Instead he's tipping his head to give room, but also focusing on how he holds the book to make the pages visible. The klakti are a humanoid species, if barely; the scandalous features to be found on a human not noticeably present, but it's hard to spy with some of the pictures taken. On the first page, the shells adorn each individual like simple clothing; some like cowrie, others clams, all of different shapes and sizes. Most of the scenery is of beaches and the ocean, caverns drenched in a green-blue hue all around, with light littered by some unknown source.

Tidus flips slowly through the magazine. Some people wear the sea shells as a dress that reaches to their webbed feet, but with obvious splits if one looks carefully. Swimming is their life.

"Different, huh? I wouldn't wear it," hah, "but it's pretty cool, learning about them like this. And they can go deeper than pretty much any human! They have some sports game too, underwater, and all kinds of kid games too." Where was that page? Tidus flips through trying to find it, but fails, landing on a page showing what some of the deeper seas look like.

"There was one with a net and catching balls with them, and another something to do with fish...? Anyway," a small laugh and grin, "nothing I heard about as a kid."
blitzcheer: (ummmooo)

[personal profile] blitzcheer 2021-01-02 11:17 am (UTC)(link)
"How d'you know my feet aren't like that?"

You checking out my feet?

Tidus lets the question hold, eyes shifted onto Inigo and wondering if he'll look down. And if he does, but even if he doesn't, Tidus shifts his toes to be visible and give them a wiggle, letting out a "Naahhh". Heheh.

With that little fun aside, Tidus goes on. "It's nothing like Spira. I mean, nowhere looks like it, 'cept some of the pics from the beaches looking out on the sea." Which given the magazine was more about the people, there weren't too many large shots of. "But it's the closest in a while. I guess it's all the ocean... it's weird being away from it this long."

Even all his travelling through Spira never took them far from the sea for long, the highest points of Mt. Gagazet bringing them down to where waves lapped against the ruined remains of Zanarkand.

"Gyueran, that first mission we had together. That was like Spira."
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[personal profile] blitzcheer 2021-01-02 10:48 pm (UTC)(link)
Guess Tidus is just going to have to be tortured by the company of Inigo. Speaking of.

"Hmm... but I like it. What we did have." He's looking up, in that way one does when recalling a memory. And he recalls that time back then on that wide beach. The fighting, day and night.

"Well, maybe I'd change getting knocked over by a squid," he remarks wryly, "but apart from that and all the fighting - you were one of the first people I knew. And we did hang out!" Tidus looks at Inigo from the corner of his eye, mouth widening into a grin. "I told you to treat yourself to some chocolate! And wasn't that where you complained about chocobos?"

Or did that come later?

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