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Who: Jessie and OTA
What: Backfired exorcism=Angelville memories
When: Day Sixteen
Where: Baggage car to start
CW: Angelville (S3 spoilers possible) and fallout, smoking, religion, will edit as needed

Ever since the mission Jessie was not dealing well with that exorcism backfiring.

Marie L'Angelle was in her head and making her feel ten times worse. Jody and TC only adding fuel to the fire. So cue the battle going on inside her mind and on occasion bleeding out, those could be heard on occasion if anyone with sharp ears came near the baggage car. But after hearing she should be in the coffin Jessie does the next best thing.

She's sleeping on the baggage car floor.

Oh sure she is faking that all is well: she does chores (maybe too perfectly) and is seen around the train. She even restocks her cigarettes from the train store (steering herself for lectures in the process but she sticks to the luggage car to smoke). But eventually the ghosts come back and keep the damage from Angelville alive and well. Add in her ongoing claustrophobia, her sleeping on the floor and who knows what else and its clear.

Jessie is spiraling and hard.

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"Deserve it." comes the too prim voice. Jessie was hip deep back in Angelville since she had been train napped during her escape. Between that and the last few days she's not exactly had time to deal properly. "Exorcism backfired, deserve this."

"Nobody deserves to sleep on the floor."

That coming from someone involved in one of the worst massacres of his time? He knows what he's saying. Though that involved part might be a serious understatement.

"You tried to exorcise the goblins? Bold."

Not very wise but bold. Fëanor heard something truly bad happened where the Purple team was but he missed the details as he was himself more occupied with his sons returning with the rest of the Red team in the state they did.

'I deserve it." was all Jessie could say. But when Fëanor noted what she did a tiny smile does escape,"Only thing that made sense honestly."

"I still see no reason why," Fëanor says shaking his head. He paid for his own bad decisions and paid dearly. So such a situation is not new to him. He has his regrets but none of the self-loathing. "You made a decision to the best of your knowledge. Maybe you miscalculated, maybe not. Maybe nothing, short of physically eliminating the creatures, would have worked anyway. Still, I don't see how that's supposed to be the grounds for self-flagellation."

"It made sense at the time, was sure it was going to work." Jessie finally could speak

"Then you did what was in your power to do and there's no reason for you to be so hard on yourself." Fëanor is not easy to convince most of the time but this is just plain folly. Or she's not telling him everything.

"Unless" he pauses watching her for a moment "Unless there's something else that's bothering you?"