who: Two Lan Xichens, Lan Sizhui & others on request where: Garden Carriage wen: Second half of Merrimont what: Two different family discussions & potentially more. A catch-all post for Lan Xichen (lanhuan@). warnings: No warnings, potential for lots of sad toot toot flutting.
[and xichen, though he does not know the man before him quite as he is known, can pick up on the difference in the name.
in what it means, in the betrayal that his older self alludes to.
his brows crease, drawing together.] After the war, what more is there to sacrifice? [the wens are no more? and meng yao -- xichen cannot think of him as jin guangyao, even if it is the name the man prefers now -- has only a future to build.]
[ Xichen squeezes his eyes. Everything and anything that is not us.
But he shakes his head. ]
I can tell you details, and others can confirm them if you wish them to, but I also know that you may disbelieve them all the same. [ Because Xichen here could have. ] And the details will hurt more than you can imagine. But all they boil down to is this - da ge was right about him.
It is not that Jin Guangyao does not care, at least that much I do not believe we were wrong about. But he is more... willing to act according to his ... objectives than that care. Every time.
Wei Wuxian played this version of 'Cleansing' for me and told me to listen to da-ge as well... [not quite, but close enough. xichen had been hesitant then but between wei wuxian and himself, even without the details it is hard to deny that betrayal will come at the hands of meng yao.
jin guangyao.
xichen can't make that shift in his mind, even if he sees a version of himself before him that falls victim to the sacrifices one of his closest friends is willing to make.]
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in what it means, in the betrayal that his older self alludes to.
his brows crease, drawing together.] After the war, what more is there to sacrifice? [the wens are no more? and meng yao -- xichen cannot think of him as jin guangyao, even if it is the name the man prefers now -- has only a future to build.]
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But he shakes his head. ]
I can tell you details, and others can confirm them if you wish them to, but I also know that you may disbelieve them all the same. [ Because Xichen here could have. ] And the details will hurt more than you can imagine. But all they boil down to is this - da ge was right about him.
It is not that Jin Guangyao does not care, at least that much I do not believe we were wrong about. But he is more... willing to act according to his ... objectives than that care. Every time.
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jin guangyao.
xichen can't make that shift in his mind, even if he sees a version of himself before him that falls victim to the sacrifices one of his closest friends is willing to make.]