"It was a book about your world! And I spoke to everyone who would speak to me from there! I would have visited as well if it was safe! If I thought I could do so without causing a flaw! We were planning a controlled trip! And again, My world, Naut, so many of the Storms, Will seems omnipresent as the driving force of everything! I've never seen any proof that there are worlds where it is not! And a fairly large body of proof for where it is! That is like saying I am presuming air is important because I breathe it! I see you and Link breathing it too, I see it in every world we have been to! Even when we needed magical help to get it, there was no denying it was crucial to survival!"
"And I was not refusing to be helped! I was trying desperately too understand, but yu two kept jumping from topic to topic from strategy to strategy so fast that every time it felt like I thought I might have a grasp on some faint understanding, it was just gone again! I kept begging that we all just sit and talk! Why couldn't we have just started from the top and just talked?! Calmly, rationally, figuring out together what was real! Why was I unwilling to listen or bad or whatever it was you thought I was just because I was still trapped? I WAS TRYING TA UNDERSTAND AN NEITHER OF YA COULD GIVE ME TWO WHOLE SECONDS TA JUS THINK!"
He winced. He had been doing so much better about his temper, and his accent. He was mad at himself for letting both slip. Link said it, he was supposed to be the father. And Shadow had made it clear to him that his own temper was not allowed, needed to be shoved to the side if he wanted to be a good father.
He was TRYING to learn. He was trying his hardest. That his best wasn't enough was a yet. He could always improve. He was trying to improve. He was studying as hard as he could. But none of the books helped with any of this!
"I NEVER CHOSE TO JUST GIVE UP AND DIE..." Well accent was under control. But the temper...
He struggled to pull it in, to try and shove his anger away where it wouldn't hurt Shadow. Or Link. "I am trying to learn! And I do question everything! But there are only so many minutes in each hour! Trust me, if I had a spell that let me follow every question and study every subject all at once all the time, do you think for a moment I wouldn't use it!? I AM TRYING!"
But everyone kept expecting him to learn faster, to be there already. Learning, proper learning took time. An unimportant skill could take easily a hundred years to gain a firm understanding. Important ones, like how to be a good father, how to fight the mind control.... those... it made sense for them to take longer! He'd been alone for centuries for the most part. He'd had his new family for less than a decade. But they expected him to have figured everything out by now! Learning didn't happen that fast! Not with things that mattered, especially! And right now nothing mattered more than Link, Shadow, Zelda, and learning how to protect and be there for all of them!
All he ever asked of Link was that he try, that he not give up. Clef himself was trying. But somehow that was never what anyone seemed to want of him. He knew how to study. He was very good at it. It was one of the few things he was confident at. He knew how to learn. And it took time, magic bless it!
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"And I was not refusing to be helped! I was trying desperately too understand, but yu two kept jumping from topic to topic from strategy to strategy so fast that every time it felt like I thought I might have a grasp on some faint understanding, it was just gone again! I kept begging that we all just sit and talk! Why couldn't we have just started from the top and just talked?! Calmly, rationally, figuring out together what was real! Why was I unwilling to listen or bad or whatever it was you thought I was just because I was still trapped? I WAS TRYING TA UNDERSTAND AN NEITHER OF YA COULD GIVE ME TWO WHOLE SECONDS TA JUS THINK!"
He winced. He had been doing so much better about his temper, and his accent. He was mad at himself for letting both slip. Link said it, he was supposed to be the father. And Shadow had made it clear to him that his own temper was not allowed, needed to be shoved to the side if he wanted to be a good father.
He was TRYING to learn. He was trying his hardest. That his best wasn't enough was a yet. He could always improve. He was trying to improve. He was studying as hard as he could. But none of the books helped with any of this!
"I NEVER CHOSE TO JUST GIVE UP AND DIE..." Well accent was under control. But the temper...
He struggled to pull it in, to try and shove his anger away where it wouldn't hurt Shadow. Or Link. "I am trying to learn! And I do question everything! But there are only so many minutes in each hour! Trust me, if I had a spell that let me follow every question and study every subject all at once all the time, do you think for a moment I wouldn't use it!? I AM TRYING!"
But everyone kept expecting him to learn faster, to be there already. Learning, proper learning took time. An unimportant skill could take easily a hundred years to gain a firm understanding. Important ones, like how to be a good father, how to fight the mind control.... those... it made sense for them to take longer! He'd been alone for centuries for the most part. He'd had his new family for less than a decade. But they expected him to have figured everything out by now! Learning didn't happen that fast! Not with things that mattered, especially! And right now nothing mattered more than Link, Shadow, Zelda, and learning how to protect and be there for all of them!
All he ever asked of Link was that he try, that he not give up. Clef himself was trying. But somehow that was never what anyone seemed to want of him. He knew how to study. He was very good at it. It was one of the few things he was confident at. He knew how to learn. And it took time, magic bless it!