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Shadow Link (older) ([personal profile] shadowcourage) wrote in [community profile] voidtreckerexpress2021-08-10 11:04 pm

We're trying so hard to get it all right

Who: Shadow Link, Clef, selected individuals
Where: Training Gym Carriage
When: Merriment 21
What: Emotional Drama
Warnings: Very emotional arguments that involve family.

Shadow knew himself. He had to know himself. If he wanted to be more than a shadow, he had to be aware of his own shortcomings and compensate for them so he could stay on the track that was important to him.

He had known for years Clef didn't understand that. Its why he had kept him at a distance on purpose. He couldn't risk someone being close who didn't understand that.

But he supposed the danger of trying to be a person is person things happened, like emotions sneaking up on you. It was unfortunate. It just meant he had to be more aware of his own feelings. He had to keep the hurt away from his heart.

But Link and Clef have never been able to talk and....

He couldn't stand Link being hurt more.

So he had to try something.

Which is why when he finds Clef during his exploration, he decides its time to try.

"Come with me," he said flatly, in a tone that isn't likely to listen to argument.
guru_clef: (NO!)

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-08-13 11:02 am (UTC)(link)
Clef had tried going back to the library after he and Link had what had been nearly as much argument as it was conversation. He succeeded in that he was there. He failed in that he had no focus, whatsoever. Which rarely happened to him in the presence of books. Instead of his usual ring of three, he had one book floating before him, and he hadn't turned the page in over an hour. Instead his forehead was resting lightly against it, his eyes closed. He went over everything in his head over and over again, unsure how he could have made things better, could he redo them.

But there was no amount of deep despair, especially given the cause, that could have stopped him from hearing that voice. His head snapped up and his book vanished into his staff. "Shadow..." he whispered.

It wasn't that he thought Link was lying to him. He knew his boy wouldn't do that. But still, to see Shadow again, to know his presence here for a fact emotionally and through direct experience rather than second hand... it was powerful.

It didn't even occour to Clef to argue, and had it, he still wouldn't have. He only managed to cast his shield around himself because it was second nature by now, and as natural to him as walking. Perhaps more so.

As soon as he was ensconced in his bubble, he followed, still emotionally reeling. He needed to speak he needed to say... something.

But for perhaps the first time in his nearly eight centuries.. all of his words seemed thin and inadequate. What could he say that would matter to Shadow? That Shadow would believe? Given his talk with Link, he was almost afraid to say anything at all.

But by Ceiphro how he wanted to open his shield and hug Shadow.

But he knew it would not be welcome. That was all that kept him from trying. That Shadow might be more hurt by the affection than welcoming of it. Just as Link hadn't wanted to be touched.

Something had broken between them. Badly. And he had no clue how to fix it.
guru_clef: (Upset)

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-08-14 06:23 am (UTC)(link)
"Not well at all," he said, softly. "I suspect you know that already, though."
guru_clef: (Upset)

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-08-14 09:35 am (UTC)(link)
He wasn't so sure of that himself. "I... am glad you and I will be able to talk," he said, softly.
guru_clef: (Upset)

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-08-14 09:49 am (UTC)(link)
"Link and I both said how we felt, argued a lot in seeming circles, constantly wandered on and off topic and..." and in the end, Link had rejected him. Again.

He looked down as he floated, shield bobbing lightly like it was a boat on the water because his focus was that little on his basic spells.

He swallowed hard. "We are both very hurt," he said softly. "And Link said that you are as well. And I do not know how to fix any of it."
guru_clef: (NO!)

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-08-14 09:53 am (UTC)(link)
"Didn't you already speak to Link? I think he'll be further upset if I tried to speak for him!" he said, startled.

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Earlier

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-08-13 01:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Link figured he should fill Shadow in on the fact that Clef had finally reached out to him.

…and that it hadn’t gone well.

“So, he…uh…came to me. We talked. I almost wish we hadn’t.”
sevenyearsasleep: (bruised)

Re: Earlier

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-08-13 04:46 pm (UTC)(link)
Link huffed a somewhat sad laugh, but returned the hug. Affection starved was a very fair assessment. He was terrible at being able to ask for affection, and tended to take hesitation as rejection.

"It's just...yeah. Apparently, he thinks I'm willing to help every single person in the universe except for him...."
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Re: Earlier

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-08-13 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)
"He was mad because we left. I tried explaining everything, and he was still mad. He complained that he didn't know what happened to us, and okay, sure, I get that, but, how was I supposed to know that he'd lay down and quit? Who does that?"

It was hard to wrap his mind around.

Link took a deep breath. "And he was mad because I stopped calling him dad, there. And...that I should have stayed longer and tried harder to break him out sooner--he really doesn't understand. I'm not even sure I can manage to stay mad, he's so clueless....but, I can't tell him I love him and call him dad again either."

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Re: Earlier

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-08-13 08:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"I don't know what to do for him. I can't lie to him and tell him I'd do things differently a second time."

Link let out a long sigh. "It doesn't feel like I deserve it. But, at the same time, I can't be his father."

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Re: INTERUPTION NEXT DAY

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-10-22 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
Link had wondered where both Clef and Shadow had gone off too. He knew Shadow's plan, but, he didn't think it was going to take days.

Raised voices clued him in fairly quickly in his search. He knocked on the door briefly, but, in typical Link fashion, let himself in.

The Hero of Time looked at his brother and adoptive father, studying them quietly for a few seconds. There had been some sort of drama, that much he could tell right off the bat.

"Are you guys okay?" He finally asked.
guru_clef: (Upset)

Re: INTERUPTION NEXT DAY

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-10-23 08:26 am (UTC)(link)
Clef had been about to reply to Shadow when he heard the knock. His head shot up and then when the door opened and Link let himself into the cabin a gibbering panic filled his mind.

He fought not to let it show on his face as he tried desperately to think of what he could say. What he should say.

How was he supposed to make any of this better when he still knew so little?!
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Re: INTERUPTION NEXT DAY

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-10-24 01:24 am (UTC)(link)
Clef's reaction was a little unsettling, but, he nodded at Shadow's response.

"That's fair. I mean...as long as you're sure?" Link chewed his lip for a moment before giving them a half-smile. "Just a minor crisis?"

Edited 2021-10-24 01:31 (UTC)
guru_clef: (Upset)

Re: INTERUPTION NEXT DAY

[personal profile] guru_clef 2021-10-24 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
Clef was still unsure what to say. He was pretty sure he was suppose to say... something...

Or...

Was that what Shadow was talking about, making things all about him? Maybe he shouldn't say anything and just let Link and Shadow talk?

Or was that just him not knowing what to say?

He wasn't sure. Why wasn't there a book on situations like this so he could study up and know what to do???
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Re: INTERUPTION NEXT DAY

[personal profile] sevenyearsasleep 2021-10-24 01:18 pm (UTC)(link)
"Honesty's important, and sometimes, bluntness is necessary," Link said, still concerned with Clef's silence. "And that is an improvement."

He sat down, deciding he was going to stay for a little while. At least until Clef stopped staring at him like a fish out of water.

"I was starting to get a little worried about you two." People did tend to vanish from his life, it wasn't entirely an unfounded concern. Although, that concern was now shifted towards Clef's reluctance towards speech.

"Clef, are you okay? You're not usually this quiet without a book stuck on your nose."

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