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voidtreckerexpress2022-07-11 03:22 pm
marvelous_murderbot) wrote in voidtreckerexpress2022-07-11 03:22 pm
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Guri's Monthly Log [OPEN]
Who: Guri, one closed prompt for Alice, open overall.
Where: Various
When: Pre-mission, can add more later
What: The daily life of a Human Replica Droid
Warnings: None needed, will add if that changes.
How to Care for an Alice - CLOSED
She'd thought it over carefully since the last, rather relaxing, stop. Alice had been through a rough number of months, and since it didn't seem like the train was providing resources to help with that, beyond any limited extent, she had taken it upon herself to counter that existence to the best of her ability. Alice was her best friend and...well, she cared for her. Truly caring for another human being was new to her. Oh, she had her friends on the train and she cared about them in her way - but Alice was special in ways she was just beginning to figure out.
She certainly hadn't ever experienced a feeling of finding something truly beautiful before - but she had, with Alice and her transformation into butterflies. More than just noticing something was aesthetically pleasing, but truly being struck by it. All very new.
In short, Alice = special - which meant ongoing efforts to ensure her continued functioning. And in this case, she'd been drawn to some of the books in the limited library, and had once again set to work. Finding a beach blanket was easy enough, as was scrounging some candles. The sources had made them out to be essential, but she was dubious on that. And it was amazing the places you found forgotten candles, half-used, all around the place.
But she'd arranged the blanket on the bed in their shared room, the candles lit around it, the lights dimmed for the purpose. And she waited, reviewing the one text, not that she needed to.
Training - OPEN
Given the rather disturbing news they'd received about the nature of...well, their predecessors...she was preparing. Which in her case meant training harder than ever before. It wasn't that she could build artificial muscles much further, but it was about creating muscle memory, shaving milliseconds off of her movements - getting used to weapons she hadn't before.
You never knew when these would be necessary things. And whatever they got into, she knew full well the sort of tasks that Team Purple was usually assigned. It didn't sound like there was going to be any actual opposition - but it paid to think there always would be.
At the moment, she was preparing a test of her heavy repeating blaster, setting up a target at one end of the gymnasium, and herself at the other. There were, in fact, a series of targets - each smaller than the last, with sandbags placed behind them - to better simulate range.
Working, Around and About - OPEN
Some time ago, she'd started on a personal shield projector project with some of the others. They were gone, now, but it had stuck with her, and she stole time in the corners of workspaces when she could; still working on perfecting it, which was easier said than done with ersatz parts and materials from another universe. She couldn't exactly go around asking for durasteel components, could she?
But she kept working on it, hoping it would succeed. In her universe, shielding worked mainly against one thing or another - so a melee weapon was effectively blocked by one, which would do little to block energy weapons, or vice versa. She reasoned, given the number of projectile weapons they'd encountered (and the falling debris she'd seen here and there) that the former would be the wiser choice.
As ever, though, she can be found around and about - she's a busy HRD, after all. And always willing to talk to new people.
Where: Various
When: Pre-mission, can add more later
What: The daily life of a Human Replica Droid
Warnings: None needed, will add if that changes.
How to Care for an Alice - CLOSED
She'd thought it over carefully since the last, rather relaxing, stop. Alice had been through a rough number of months, and since it didn't seem like the train was providing resources to help with that, beyond any limited extent, she had taken it upon herself to counter that existence to the best of her ability. Alice was her best friend and...well, she cared for her. Truly caring for another human being was new to her. Oh, she had her friends on the train and she cared about them in her way - but Alice was special in ways she was just beginning to figure out.
She certainly hadn't ever experienced a feeling of finding something truly beautiful before - but she had, with Alice and her transformation into butterflies. More than just noticing something was aesthetically pleasing, but truly being struck by it. All very new.
In short, Alice = special - which meant ongoing efforts to ensure her continued functioning. And in this case, she'd been drawn to some of the books in the limited library, and had once again set to work. Finding a beach blanket was easy enough, as was scrounging some candles. The sources had made them out to be essential, but she was dubious on that. And it was amazing the places you found forgotten candles, half-used, all around the place.
But she'd arranged the blanket on the bed in their shared room, the candles lit around it, the lights dimmed for the purpose. And she waited, reviewing the one text, not that she needed to.
Training - OPEN
Given the rather disturbing news they'd received about the nature of...well, their predecessors...she was preparing. Which in her case meant training harder than ever before. It wasn't that she could build artificial muscles much further, but it was about creating muscle memory, shaving milliseconds off of her movements - getting used to weapons she hadn't before.
You never knew when these would be necessary things. And whatever they got into, she knew full well the sort of tasks that Team Purple was usually assigned. It didn't sound like there was going to be any actual opposition - but it paid to think there always would be.
At the moment, she was preparing a test of her heavy repeating blaster, setting up a target at one end of the gymnasium, and herself at the other. There were, in fact, a series of targets - each smaller than the last, with sandbags placed behind them - to better simulate range.
Working, Around and About - OPEN
Some time ago, she'd started on a personal shield projector project with some of the others. They were gone, now, but it had stuck with her, and she stole time in the corners of workspaces when she could; still working on perfecting it, which was easier said than done with ersatz parts and materials from another universe. She couldn't exactly go around asking for durasteel components, could she?
But she kept working on it, hoping it would succeed. In her universe, shielding worked mainly against one thing or another - so a melee weapon was effectively blocked by one, which would do little to block energy weapons, or vice versa. She reasoned, given the number of projectile weapons they'd encountered (and the falling debris she'd seen here and there) that the former would be the wiser choice.
As ever, though, she can be found around and about - she's a busy HRD, after all. And always willing to talk to new people.
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"Eventually, yes," she replied. "Patience can solve most of my problems."
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"Ruby, you've been in...close relationships before, yes? Emotionally and physically?"
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"Y-Yes, I have. Wh-Why?" she stammered.
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It's such a simple question, she feels like she has to elaborate.
"The difference, I mean - between liking being around someone, and actual attraction?"
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"It's a strange feeling. It's a little hard to explain - like... you want to do more with them. Be around them more. Your heart beats a little more faster around them..."
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"I mean, I like people but I've never had the chance to develop actual relationships."
She looked down at her hands, folding them, running her thumbs over her hand.
"I was...a thing, if I haven't told you. A possession. And then I met all of you, and all of you helped me realize that I was a person after all."
She smiled at Ruby.
"Sorry, it's all a lot. But everything here has been about realizing...who I am, and how much I can evolve beyond my programming. And I think...I think I've discovered that I...can feel for another."
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“Isn’t awesome to know such a feeling?” Ruby said. “I still remember our first meeting, how you were willing to help me with Moonlacing and the awkwardness of it all… I’m so glad you can find that feeling on your own, even if it isn’t perfect…”
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"I've come so far. I killed, and maimed and that was all I was, and now...now I know that I can feel, and care, and...fall for someone."
The smile turned a little bit more fond, looking to Ruby.
"Thank you. I needed outside confirmation. Someone who knew what it was, to feel these things. I don't know how you handle it, just feeling attraction so randomly, so freely. How wonderful."
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“I’m happy for you, Guri!” Ruby said, leaning over to hug her. “Look at you, falling for someone…”
“It’s not me, is it?”
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"Thank you, but...no. Wonderful though you are, and have been for me."
She sighed.
"They don't know. I doubt they even suspect."
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Ruby knew this bit. She knew it all too well.
“Just to warn you… it will hurt if they reject you. They don’t mean to, but it’s the way things are. I learned that the hard way. All you can do is… well… tell them.”
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"I'm aware. But I am not going to tell them," she replied, in a matter of fact tone of voice.
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She figured she would be wanting to!
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"Because you're right. The likelihood of rejection is very high. I am a person but still an artificial one, for a start. Leaving aside any other consideration. But...I don't age. There is no future there, no growing old alongside. Nobody would want that, I'm sure."
She shook her head.
"It is enough that I know. That I can, that it is real, and exists."
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She shook her head at that.
"I know I'm being optimistic, but... I guess I want you to be happy."
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"I know, and that is why you're my friend, Ruby. You care so much about so many. You are one of the best people I have met. And that is from a list of good people."
She wants her to know that.
"And maybe. But I've never had a regret before. Might be good. In any event, with everything coming...best not to distract two people, right?"
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"Thank you, Guri. I'm so glad you think that way about me." she said. "And, yeah, I guess it would be for the best..."
She'll giggle a bit before cupping her cheek gently.
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"What?"
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CW: Abuse mentions
"You should have just told me - not that I had the understanding or vocabulary to do anything with it, anyway. I was..."
She sighed.
"I was a thing. Used. You understand? Normal relationships, the idea they can be healthy or I can even experience them...that has been a difficult process. Being...desirable because of my looks? That is familiar but tied to...many bad memories."
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“No, no, I couldn’t of!” Ruby pleaded. “I would never have treated you like that! I…!”
Tears welled up in her eyes.
“Can you forgive me for even thinking like that?! I hate Moonlacing and how it makes me think!”
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"You didn't know, and you treated me with respect. I just couldn't respond how you might have wanted."
She offered a fond smile.
"You've always treated me wonderfully, and I have no complaints."
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"Thank you, Guri. I'm glad I could be your friend." she said. "I'll do my best to help you with anything. I promise."
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