unfavorableinstigation: It is dark, but Nita is inside reading a book. (Dark)
unfavorableinstigation ([personal profile] unfavorableinstigation) wrote in [community profile] voidtreckerexpress2020-08-02 09:15 am

I find it hard to tell you, I find it hard to take.

Who: Nita and YOU. Preferably close CR, but anyone can stop by.
Where: Quiet Car, second floor, a room near the front of the carriage.
When: Middle half of Grasshopper; post-platform, pre-event.
What: A(n ex-) wizard retreats. Some may come to reprimand, some to console, some just to find out WTF happened.
Warnings: ... Discussion of what's basically psychic assault in this log, folks. Mind your headspace!


After the platform, Nita retreated into herself. That was the best way to describe it; she could not be 'booked' in one of these rooms the same way she could have been in the Medical Car, but she spent as much time as she could in just the one room, not speaking unless spoken to, not leaving except to go to the restroom or fetch another journal.

No matter when one arrived to check on her, she would be either resting - staring off into space more than actually sleeping - or writing.

Some of the words were crossed out, as if she had had a tough time finding the right ones, but the writing looked to be formal in nature. A report. And, most notably, it was in English, not the alien curves of the Speech.

If she had to live with her actions, Nita figured, the least she could do was explain them - and explain why they were wrong.

Mostly, though, what encompassed her mind was the emptiness of it all. She couldn't even be angry now.

Fitting.
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 12:49 am (UTC)(link)
"On platform day. Not any thing to do with the platform--just arbitrary, I guess." She takes a seat, with a little hesitant smile.

"I hear I missed a lot. Then and now."
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 01:32 am (UTC)(link)
"Apparently you fought a great deal of monsters? I mean, Romeo gave me the basic rundown, very quickly, and Zetta just said it was a lot of fighting. Also Romeo said there was a god as big as a cave?" Persephone gives a wry smile, "As if size mattered. But I imagine it was impressive."
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 02:54 am (UTC)(link)
"Well...I'm glad it got what it needed, by the end."

At least she thinks so. Honestly, the 'Burrower' could be anything, with any agenda. But it feels ridiculous to question every little aspect of the mission she missed. It's over, things are done with. It wouldn't have mattered if it was a real god she could speak with or not, it's not as if they'll stop there again.

"Did anyone get too badly hurt? I hope you stayed safe at least."
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 03:49 pm (UTC)(link)
"Of course I have, plant buddies. He was looking--odd." She frowns, but doesn't pursue that line of conversation. She's fully capable of changing the subject right back.

"It sounds like you did a lot for them, down in the tunnels. Did you get hurt and are avoiding talking about it or just didn't expect to end up in the middle of things?" She props her chin in one hand, leaning forward.
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 04:58 pm (UTC)(link)
Persephone listens, quietly. She'd sort of expected to have to come at the reason she's hiding out from the side, to ease into it, but Nita explains without much prodding.

"Well of course they didn't treat it as illegal. We've been kidnapped by a train to do it's dirty work, of course no one is mad you took out your frustration on a train."
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 05:47 pm (UTC)(link)
"Well--I don't really know. It's just a train right? It's not a proper being." Gods, she's the wrong person to ask these sort of things. She's probably saying the wrong thing. And the whole time, her own crimes are hidden carefully in the back of her mind.
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 06:43 pm (UTC)(link)
It's more the lack of--corporealness that does it for Persephone. Is it real if she can't see, touch or speak to it? Hard to say. It's slightly disturbing to hear it has a mind, that it has feelings. It makes it much more--dark.

"Almost everything we've tried is physical. I even tried to worm some vines in the engine room once, no dice." She leans back, placing her hands in her lap and searching for the words to say.

"If it is a being, it's one that kidnapped us and keeps us trapped for weeks. When we are freed, we are sent to do things that injure and kill people, to help others. A lot of the time it's been fairly clear cut who is at the wrong. Yes, we have amenities and it gives us 'time off for good behavior' occasionally." She does the finger quotes, of course, "But it's still a gilded cage. Anger--especially the kind brought about by losing someone you care about, can make you do awful things. Things you didn't think you were capable of. But it doesn't even--really seem like you did that. You say it was a mental attack, did you really hurt them? Or just make them angry?"
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 07:01 pm (UTC)(link)
"Were you? Or did you do something because you were angry and immediately were horrified with yourself?" Persephone gestures the room around them.
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 07:32 pm (UTC)(link)
"Not about me. I'm not a psychi-whatsit wizard." She says automatically, curling in down on herself as if that would avoid the question.

"But you're not wrong, it doesn't make the assault okay, especially to you. You're holding yourself to a standard and failure to keep control of your emotions hurts. But it's understandable to lose control. All you can do is apologize and try to make amends. Wait can you apologize to a train?"
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 07:55 pm (UTC)(link)
"There isn't really a concrete way to apologize to it, is there?" She screws up her face in thought and then makes a weird wide gesture around her head, "Can't you do--like the talking to it thing? That you do. Or is not talking to you anymore?"
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 08:14 pm (UTC)(link)
"I--I'm confused. I thought this was a part of you, like my powers." The sheer breadth of types of power in a single train usually led to her making assumptions. Poor ones, it seems.

"So you... Scared the concept of your powers--your wizardry. It got upset and scared and maybe angry? I imagine? So now it too isn't talking to you. Along with the train."
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[personal profile] springforth 2020-08-04 08:37 pm (UTC)(link)
She continues to be baffled by the whole concept of it but it feels easiest to just accept and move on.

"Um--no. I don't think I have. As least not by name." That throws her if a little, to be honest. "Uh, have your tried talking to your wizardry, see if they will also accept your apology? Or get this Xander to pray it on? If they can talk and not just listen, I suppose."

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