Xue Yang might be on the outskirts but he also doesn't particularly mind it. He knows that his actions are what put him there, and he has never claimed to be particularly loyal to anything. So it isn't surprising that most of the cultivators here don't like him.
"You're the only one who might have any chance of keeping my head attached and also the only one I can say that I trust to stand by my side on occassion." But he also figures that if a choice came up between him and some of the others, it probably isn't his side that Meng Yao will chose. He knows that his loyalties still lie elsewhere.
"It's not that I am giving up, it's just that I already know most of them will never accept me even if I change."
Why would they after all he has done? And he isn't about to apologize for any of it. He has tried to understand regrets and get himself to accept his own feelings on things he has done, but that doesn't mean he wouldn't still make some of the same decisions. He would still follow Meng Yao through whatever path he chose to take and support him how he can.
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"You're the only one who might have any chance of keeping my head attached and also the only one I can say that I trust to stand by my side on occassion." But he also figures that if a choice came up between him and some of the others, it probably isn't his side that Meng Yao will chose. He knows that his loyalties still lie elsewhere.
"It's not that I am giving up, it's just that I already know most of them will never accept me even if I change."
Why would they after all he has done? And he isn't about to apologize for any of it. He has tried to understand regrets and get himself to accept his own feelings on things he has done, but that doesn't mean he wouldn't still make some of the same decisions. He would still follow Meng Yao through whatever path he chose to take and support him how he can.