wound up

[blue_ice]

Who: Kaiba and open!
Where: Spa car
When: Imagination 4, very late at night
What: Someone gives into temptation to indulge and has potentially interesting discussions!
Warnings: Implied/possible mention of child abuse, other war/injury discussion possible. Will update if needed.



It's been...a day. Kaiba's spent time this evening working on how to talk to the others. It's clear as a train they need to regroup on a number of topics and make some changes, but how? And does he even want to try to facilitate? Not exactly his strong suit. He can already imagine the headache. He's sketched out a few potential outlines of topics to open the floor on. Maybe the memorial really is the simplest place to start?

But he's putting that out of his mind. After a late night in the standard car hunched over his notebook, he realizes that the train's fallen quiet in the night. Time to head back to bed. He moves through the largely-empty cars, but as the strange new scent of the spa car filters through in the corridor, he hesitates. The quiet is the perfect time, isn't it?

One ruffle through the closet and a quick shower trip later, he returns, carefully folding his legs beneath him as he sinks in. His torso's long enough that he's only covered up to the ribs and the old, angry red marks between his shoulder blades are exposed, but surely it's quiet enough that that's not an issue.

Finally...at last, he hears nothing but the sound of water lapping the edges of the pool. He can finally relax. He closes his eyes, rolling his shoulders back with a soft sigh.

"...hm. Not bad...maybe."

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[namethattune]

Siebren is a bit amazed at how quickly he had come around to the idea of the spa. On his next sleepless night, he finds himself lying awake and thinking: he could walk the train, or he could try a soak and see if that relaxes him enough to try to sleep. There is, at least, novelty in the latter option.

He changes and heads to the spa car, wearing his swim trunks and hoodie. With any luck, it's late enough that he'll be alone in the car. If there is someone else there...well, perhaps he will be able to back out or pass through. That thought in mind, he opens the door, entering before he looks up-

Oh.

He should leave - it was what he had planned. But he recognizes Seto, even from behind- and those marks-

Perhaps...perhaps he is not as alone in this as he thinks.

Before he can make a decision, the door clicks audibly shut behind him.

[blue_ice]

This peace is...perfect, and welcome. He's breathing slowly, letting the warmth sink into his tired body, so relaxed that he's slowly stretching out.

And then there's a thump from the door. His arms immediately tense on the ledge and he pushes up, revealing that the faded long red lines run down the rest of his back. He swings right around to face...who? Oh. Right, he has to push his damp hair out of his eyes, it's getting too long.

There's Siebren, clearly ready for a relaxation session. Which is his right, of course, it's public space. Kaiba shifts awkwardly, feeling a strange burn of embarrassment at being caught unaware that he can't entirely explain. And it makes his youth more apparent than usual.

"I didn't think anyone else would come this late. But of course there'd be one among over a hundred. Come on."

And he folds his limbs, shifting to make room.

[namethattune]

He stays where he is as Seto shifts, rooted to the spot. There are too many of those marks, all in the same place, to be combat scars - either Seto is terribly unlucky or those were intentional-

Then Seto turns to face him, and the moment fades. He has seen Seto self-assured, recovering from injury, and exhausted, but he has never seen Seto look so...young.

It is on Siebren, then, to be reassuring, much as he dislikes being in this situation himself. Perhaps it will help. He hopes it will.

"Forgive the intrusion," he says, crossing the car, "I could not sleep." He removes his hoodie and folds it neatly, placing it against the wall and far away from any potential splash zone. "And unfortunately, statistical unlikeliness does not forestall occurrence. Life will have its way." Whether either of them like it or not.

He takes a breath and lets it out slowly - it is still so, so difficult to do this, even in front of someone who will likely understand - and turns to head towards the pool. He is unexpectedly fit for an older man with what would ostensibly be a desk job; he is also scarred himself, and it takes an act of will to not rest an arm across the worst of them. An old laceration traces his ribs, and another arcs over his collarbone and right shoulder; his left shoulder and abdomen both sport clusters of starburst scars - bullet wounds, and the incisions required to remove them. Scars have stories, and his speak of Sigma, a conversation he would much rather not have.

He sinks into the pool opposite Seto, doing his best to leave them both plenty of room - the dance of two very tall people in a shared space - and waits, unable to relax just yet.

[blue_ice]

"The odds are virtually never in my favor, I should know this by now," Kaiba answers, tired but managing to laugh the slightest bit at himself. Still, he waits. He doesn't mean to watch, but...those marks catch his eye.

Not only does that physique speak of power, the marks mean he's been tested in battle. If he wanted proof that Siebren was as capable as he claimed...well, here it was. Those are marks of someone who's battled to the brink and survived...strength, not weakness.

Yet even as socially stunted as Seto is, he doesn't miss that Siebren is feeling the tension too. Could it be that he didn't want to be seen either?

Possibly. So he settles in, shifts his legs to give the other man space, and speaks.

"So how did your long night go?"

[namethattune]

It seems that Seto is not interested in talking about it. For a moment, Siebren wants to reach out to Seto, inquire, let him know of their common ground-

But Seto has eyes, and a brain, and has likely already figured that out himself. Siebren has already interrupted his relaxation time; he runs the risk of driving Seto away if he continues in that vein, and that is the last thing he wants to do.

So he rests his back against the pool wall and takes another deep, slow breath, in and out. He knows their conversational trajectory; perhaps he can relax now.

"Slowly," he replies, "and not well." Some nights, he has too much to think about but sleeps anyway; tonight had been the opposite, with cohesive thought escaping him but his brain still unwilling or unable to shut off. "I had hoped a soak would help me relax well enough to sleep, and...I had also thought no one else would be here this late." A very small, wry smile creeps across his face. "Had I known, I likely would not have come, but...here we are.

"How has your night been?"

[blue_ice]

Kaiba finds himself relaxing a little. Maybe too soon, but...though he doesn't know the man well yet, he's...fine. The low-key energy is very much appreciated.

"I was training with my knives," he starts. "If the usual schedule holds, another mission is coming in a few days. Every other mission is dangerous for our team, it seems, and the last one wasn't, so...it's a possibility that I'll need them."

Deep breath.

"But I'm happy to be quiet if that's what you need. I'm...fine either way, I just don't like crowds. Or prying eyes."

[namethattune]

Weapons training. It makes sense, to want to become more proficient in combat when one's team requires protection. Not everyone comes prepared - not everyone has Siebren's...particular situation. He listens, and ponders his reply when Seto pauses and then continues-

...oh. He had been correct, at least to some extent.

Siebren sighs and sinks a bit further down into the water, tension he was not aware he had been holding onto melting from his shoulders. "I am alright with conversation," he says after a few moments. "I simply...do not like questions, from those that do not understand."

Present company, it seems, excluded.

[blue_ice]

"I'm not one to dwell on the past," Kaiba says softly. Well...that's true most of the time. As long as a certain pharaoh isn't involved. He settles and seems to relax, but there's a swirl of conflict and doubt in his head.

The thing Kaiba fears most is pity. His marks are uncomfortably telling. Siebren, it seems, also has a story he's not eager to tell.

"You said you were capable...and that's clear beyond a doubt," he says. "And anyone who would be repulsed can kick rocks. But...it's easy for people to look at an incomplete story and make assumptions, isn't it."

[sos_pilot]

Della's not much of a spa person - but she's been linked with Kaiba mentally, and as such, feels a compulsion to head there.

She doesn't head inside - he might value privacy, after all, and instead leans on the walls just outside of the bath, lightly knocking on the doorway without entering.

"Hey, Seto."

[namethattune]

He lets the statement settle. There is an idiom about letting sleeping dogs lie; best to allow that.

But Seto continues with an unexpected affirmation. It's uncomfortable, hearing support for Sigma when Siebren tries so hard to keep them separate, if only in his mind, but...Seto does not know, and Siebren had offered his services. Seto is working with the context he has, and Siebren can take Seto's words as the compliment they are intended to be. "I am unworried about their revulsion - merely their curiosity. But thank you." He sighs. "And...yes, it is, and often the only way to correct those assumptions is with the truth." A truth he is unwilling to divulge fully, regardless of mutual understanding. "Better to control the narrative from the beginning."

[blue_ice]

"...Della?"

Seto feels her presence a moment before he hears her voice, and so he's already lifting himself out. He takes a moment before opening the door, wearing bright orange trunks and the towel over his shoulders. He spares her a little smile.

"Coming for a late night bath, or am I thinking too hard again?"

[emerald_mirror]

There's a third member joining this little party. For a moment, Xander has paused outside. He's used to having nightmares; they don't happen too often on the train, thankfully, but tonight...

He didn't want to bother his roommates (though he suspected Glorfindel wasn't really asleep when he left...), so Xander had thought that bringing himself down to investigate the spa car was a good idea. How had he missed the memo that there were going to be people here at this time of night? Normally, the nephilim didn't mind that sort of thing, but he was a bit off kilter after the bad dream.

He'd appropriated his barbecue swim trunks after the island, so that was what Xander sauntered through the door wearing, one of his towels wrapped around his neck and a dumb smile on his face. Which he probably should have dialed back a little, considering these two relative strangers before him. (Sure, he knew Kaiba's face a little, but the older man was unfamiliar. Something about him reminded him a bit of Drake, though...)

His brows went up at the other fellows' collections of scars--not that he didn't have some of his own. The worst offender was probably the angry red keloid that wrapped around his right arm near the elbow, though there were delicate traceries over his chest and shoulder, and a pair of patches, paler against his skin over his right pectoral and just under his left one.

Xander paused for a moment, and gave a mental shrug. "Hey, guys!" he said, cheerful and trying to be casual. "Nice scars!"

It took him about two seconds to realize he'd probably shoved his foot in his mouth.

[blue_ice]

Kaiba knew all about controlling the narrative. He desperately wanted to this time---it was just a matter of finding a believable excuse. And that was the part he was still working on.

He was content to lapse into a comfortable-ish silence, but then another voice pierced it. What the---

Kaiba turned to look over his shoulder. His jaw went slack, he lifted a finger from the water to object...and overall it was bewildering. But he stopped to look before speaking, and realized the new visitor had had his brushes with mortality too.

"Not how I would---phrase it---," he finally managed to whisper, sounding faintly pained. "But. Good evening?"

[namethattune]

Siebren had just closed his eyes, ready to settle into the silence, when it was broken by someone else-

He startles, eyes snapping open, and immediately sinks further into the water, as though covering his shoulders with completely clear and transparent water will somehow hide his scars from view.

Brilliant reaction. Not at all embarrassing.

He takes a few moments to try to calm himself, and in those few moments notices the scars on the newcomer. Well. They are an interesting group, aren't they. That also means that, in all likelihood, that greeting was meant in earnest. In light of that...

"Thank you?" is about all he can manage at the moment.

[emerald_mirror]

Oooh he messed it up. Big time. Xander does have the grace to blush, wings twitching and one hand lifting to rub at the back of his shaggy hair.

But then he smiles sheepishly, and shrugs. "Evening. And you're welcome! Uh. I just feel like scars mean you faced some sort of adversity, some time, and here you are on the other side, giving the big, fat middle finger to it, no matter where it ended up."

This is what Alice Liddell would call 'Xander-ness.' Others might call it bullshit, but Xander really does believe it, or he wouldn't say it.

"So, uh, room for one more?" He's more gangly than the other two, but it's really polite to ask, anyway.

[blue_ice]

Kaiba silently shifts to make room for Xander, a strange flicker of emotion on his face. It's a well-meaning enough statement, he supposes, but he's still facing an inner conflict. His shoulders shake as he forcefully pushes down the remnants of his anguish.

"That's...a positive spin," he finally answers. "Not one I can share. But come in, I...see we're all in this boat."

[namethattune]

The newcomer's assessment of scars is encouraging, if wholly inaccurate in Siebren's case. He has not come out the other side when it comes to Sigma, and he has doubts as to whether that will ever happen - but those are his own problems, not to be sorted out in public.

(The addition of a third person, and a complete stranger at that, officially makes this "public" as far as Siebren is concerned. This is what he gets for choosing to stay.)

He moves to make space, glancing to Seto as he does, and...oh. He recognizes that expression - he has worn it himself more than once. And if he is reading this correctly - if Seto is shaking-

He will need space to sort this out, and he will not get that if attention is on him. Siebren can step in, at least for now. He has enough experience putting things aside to deal with later that this will not cause him trouble. Hopefully.

"You may only join us if you introduce yourself," he says, tone arch and accompanied by a smile he wears but does not feel. "Consider it a password to this...exclusive club." He gestures to encompass the very public car. Not his usual method of greeting, to be sure, but if there is anything he has learned from his coworkers, it is that smartasses draw attention. He can sacrifice decorum to achieve this goal.

[emerald_mirror]

Xander just makes finger guns at Seto, and grins. "Hey, it takes time. I get it. There are some things even I'm not over." While he can admit it, he's still going to blow sunshine until he can get over it.

Even if it kills him. Which it might...not that he can't feel Seto's anguish. Not to mention the way he's talking sounds just like someone else he knows--and then the older man gets protective. Just like Drake might.

Xander gets it. He might have a cheerful smile on his face, and act dumb sometimes (okay it's a lot of the time), but there's more going on beneath the surface than the nephilim lets on.

Not to mention he's been a smartass, in his time. He bows to Siebren, then, but his attitude is more playful than smartass-in-kind.

"But of course! Alexander Camael Woods, at your service. But call me Xander, everyone else does." Shrugging, even as he moves over to the side and works on very carefully getting into the pool--attempting to avoid splashing too much, and avoiding getting his wings wet, too. He does not want to drag wet wings around anywhere, if he can help it.

[blue_ice]

Ah, Kaiba's archnemesis: cheery optimism. The feeling of uncertain vulnerability fades as Siebren generously buys him some time, thankfully, and he can deal with minor discomfort no problem. He watches Xander settle in, and...well, Kaiba might as well resume introductions to keep this going at a nice, safe level. He's completely fine, he can just Ignore it.

So he takes a steadying breath to balance. In and out, it's not a big deal, it's just...an unexpected social hour. He's handled this before, though admittedly never in a context that's made him feel vulnerable like this. But if they all share the same issue...

Hm. He'll have to think on it some more. But for now, introduction.

"Seto Kaiba," he offers, inclining his head in greeting. "Orange team, and a mechanic. This isn't usually my scene, but...work demands it," he sighs, rubbing a shoulder with his hand.

[namethattune]

Well. That is...forthright. Siebren cannot tell if the newcomer has no shame, or no boundaries, or simply enough optimism to make up for the damage that left those scars. As he continues, and bows, and introduces himself, Siebren begins to wonder if it isn't the latter.

(Would that they could all be so fortunate.)

But Seto seems to have steadied himself, at the least. Mission accomplished, Siebren settles in. The conversational trajectory has shifted - the addition of an unforeseen variable will do that - but not, he thinks, for the worse. "Siebren de Kuiper," he says by way of introduction. "Also orange team, and an astrophysicist." A pause. "I believe we had all expected to be here alone tonight, but...nonetheless, welcome."

[emerald_mirror]

Oh, he hadn't mentioned that aspect of himself. Oops. "I'm purple team, I guess just rank and file--though I know Nita, I work with her on trying to talk to the train."

Which might make it more of a big deal, though since they've made almost no progress, Xander doesn't consider it much of anything. Xander thinks for a moment that there are things he could probably do, as important as a mechanic--maybe not so much as an astrophysicist, but...

He grimaces for just a moment, and then shrugs. As much as he wants to fake it 'til he makes it, not just be someone's brother, or someone's son, or just a clone, he's not sure how to actually do that. But he's good at swallowing all that down, and so he grins again.

"Thanks, I appreciate it. So now that the spa is here, this is the chosen tension tamer? I mean, I knew it showed up, but I only swung by really because I didn't think I'd get back to sleep right away."

Almost a slip-up, but Xander isn't entirely unwilling to let his feet of clay show, either. He found it so damn annoying when Alex acted unfeeling and perfect. He couldn't mimic his twin that much.

[blue_ice]

"Does that mean you have language powers like hers?

Kaiba's curious---he's heard from Nita how difficult that particular task is. As he ponders, he spots another strange mark on Xander...a bar code? Well. They all have their secrets. Kaiba shrugs and sinks in comfortably, now that the new dynamic is established.

"I've had nights I couldn't sleep either," he offers. "When danger's around the corner, and you've endured enough loss already to know what's at stake...you know things can get worse. So I've been trying to prepare for the missions, and. I finally hit a wall."

His chin drops. There it is...that unpleasant feeling knocking on the door.

[namethattune]

Something about "rank and file" does not sit right with Siebren. He doubts Xander has zero skills; even that optimism that Xander had been displaying could be helpful in the right situation. "I doubt there is any such thing as 'rank and file,' here," he replies. "From what I have observed, the train is full of unique individuals with unique talents. Everyone brings something." Openness and the ability to defuse a tense situation, for example. "Have you had any luck with the train?"

He listens, and considers. Not getting back to sleep implies something woke Xander up; a nightmare, perhaps? And the losses Seto mentions - were they from home, or experienced over the course of his time on the train? Both questions worth pursuing, but not at this exact moment. "It happens to all of us, at one point or another," he says as a response to both. "I have found a distraction is often the best option until you can relax enough to rest. Your mind does work through problems as you sleep, after all." Tearing the wound open further to investigate the cause only drives sleep further away. He has spent enough nights chasing his own problems to the knife's edge of his sanity to have learned at least that much. Best to leave it be and let the brain sort through it on its own time.

[shadowslipping]

Yuume suffice to say, tends to go to bed late. One could make jokes about hosts of darkness and whatnot, but ultimately the fact is simply that she has the tendency to get caught up in whatever has her focus. That having been in this case, her gym training.

Which of course meant a late shower, and of course, having heard there's now a hot tub, and determining it's too late for anyone in particular to be using it...

"...Ah."

Yuume, making use of towel and clean gym clothes, stares. "...Sorry, I didn't realize anyone was..."

awkward...

[blue_ice]

You'd think Seto would learn after the first few nights. But no...here he is late at night once more, indulging in a soak with his back turned. Once again, the door opens, and it takes a second but he recognizes his...great-great-grandniece's voice? Was that right?

And she's facing his back. Depending on how much she knows of their family history, this could be Bad. But...

He takes a steadying breath and shifts around to the side, looking up at her with a tired but not unwelcoming expression. Maybe she'll surprise him...and he did want to get to know her better.

"It's public space. You came all the way here...might as well. If I'm not bothering you."