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voidtreckerexpress2021-01-10 07:05 pm
bakegarasu) wrote in voidtreckerexpress2021-01-10 07:05 pm
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sail through an empty night; [open]
Who: Otoha and whoever risks coming across him.
Where: Quiet Car
When: Jelly 5
What: Otoha and Koumyou had A Discussion and now he’s struggling with repressed feelings.
Warnings: Talk of death, blood, murder, patricide/fratricide. Also just be warned that if your character is an asshole to him there’s like a 70+% chance Otoha will retaliate physically.
Yosuke Otoha considered himself to be a resilient person. He’d gone through so much - he’d even been inches from death twice in the past week and a half, closer than he’d ever been - and survived years of training and battles and never once felt fear or pain.
But nothing really had prepared him for Reiji’s death, nor the faint guilt that if becoming a Karas hadn’t stripped his memories then he could have been there sooner - but then he’d be dead and so would Reiji.
His conversation with Koumyou had only made those feelings worse, and a faint fear of what Reiji would be facing if reincarnation really was real. As kind as he was, he had still joined the yakuza, after all.
When he wakes up on Jelly 5 he heads straight to a quiet car, which isn’t unusual. He’s not a morning person and he doesn’t want to be disturbed by other people doing their morning routines. But when he closes and locks the booth’s door and lies down, he doesn’t sleep.
Instead he starts crying, silently at first before breaking into sobs. He feels weak, but at least he can’t be heard.
... Except the door is see-through, and if someone walks past at the right angle he’s pretty clearly visible.
Where: Quiet Car
When: Jelly 5
What: Otoha and Koumyou had A Discussion and now he’s struggling with repressed feelings.
Warnings: Talk of death, blood, murder, patricide/fratricide. Also just be warned that if your character is an asshole to him there’s like a 70+% chance Otoha will retaliate physically.
Yosuke Otoha considered himself to be a resilient person. He’d gone through so much - he’d even been inches from death twice in the past week and a half, closer than he’d ever been - and survived years of training and battles and never once felt fear or pain.
But nothing really had prepared him for Reiji’s death, nor the faint guilt that if becoming a Karas hadn’t stripped his memories then he could have been there sooner - but then he’d be dead and so would Reiji.
His conversation with Koumyou had only made those feelings worse, and a faint fear of what Reiji would be facing if reincarnation really was real. As kind as he was, he had still joined the yakuza, after all.
When he wakes up on Jelly 5 he heads straight to a quiet car, which isn’t unusual. He’s not a morning person and he doesn’t want to be disturbed by other people doing their morning routines. But when he closes and locks the booth’s door and lies down, he doesn’t sleep.
Instead he starts crying, silently at first before breaking into sobs. He feels weak, but at least he can’t be heard.
... Except the door is see-through, and if someone walks past at the right angle he’s pretty clearly visible.
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Otoha's breath hitches and he presses his face into Ryo's shoulder, starting to shake a little. "... No one's ever... no one's..." Breathe, Otoha. "... No one's ever... done this..."
Not just treated him like a person, but hugged him. No one's wanted to get close, and by the time he had an actual friend it would have just been weird.
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Ryo holds him a little more tightly as he trembles. "And now someone has," he says, as firmly as he can manage, though he can't quite keep the tremor out of his voice. "And if you want another one, tell me, and you can have another one. Whenever you need it."
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"... You're a good kid, Ryo." He lifts his hand and gently ruffles Ryo's hair. "I... uh." He doesn't say this often, but... "... Thank you." He takes a few deep breaths and then lets go, pulling back a bit to try to figure out what's going on in his brain.
"I... um. I know Sanzo said something about making a memorial for Reiji, but... that feels too public? Maybe just... planting something for him. I'm not sure. Something that doesn't have to do anything but just be there peacefully." He's open to ideas.
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He stills completely as Otoha ruffles his hair-
"You're a good kid, no matter what anyone else says. Don't forget that, okay?"
-and a wave of homesickness crashes over him. He winces and swallows it back - this is not the time - and then steps back as Otoha lets him go. "Anytime. I mean it." And if he looks a little misty-eyed...well. Today has been a lot, hasn't it.
He takes a seat on the bench again - next to Otoha this time, as they're already well past that arms-length barrier. "There are open plots in the greenhouse. I was planning on asking for one after we come back from the mission - you can use part of mine if you want, or you could probably get your own too. And...flowers? Maybe a tree? Persephone might have some ideas, if you want to ask her." Most of Ryo's gardening has been strictly utilitarian, and a goddess of spring is probably the best resource around when it comes to growing things.
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Hm. "You can have that spot. I'm not planning on growing much at first. I... don't really know how."
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He leans forward and laughs, quiet and fond. After everything he's been told today, that explanation is a welcome relief and a bit of a pressure release. "Well I guess that one's ours, then," he says with a smile. "Show me where it is - we can put a sign on it or something."
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He's doing his best. He carefully rests a hand on Ryo's shoulder - the hair ruffle was too far, so maybe this will work. "I... it'd be... good to learn something that doesn't involve fighting or killing?" He doesn't mean to, but the end of it turns into a question. He's not sure how to do this, but he's going to try.