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Egret 22---Closed Log to Ignis and to Madoka

[Egret 22--Closed to Ignis--as soon as Raven is aware of the break-up.]

Tony had always been more out in the spotlight than Ignis. The younger man seemed to prefer to fade in the background too, which meant that Tony stood out more. Raven knew this would mean, while she'd need to check on Tony as well, he would manage and have more people likely watching him than Ignis was.

Never mind that Ignis' friends from home were on the train now--she wouldn't claim to know him well, but she did understand a few key things about him that others might not. How seriously he took his duty, and just how close he played things in his heart. The first wasn't so hard to tell, but most people might not realize how strong it was. The second--good luck hiding from an Empath, not that Raven went prying needlessly. She was watchful, and knew what to look for rather.

So, first she's stopping by the kitchen and raiding the good stash of tea she and Bucky had found. Making two cups, and then seeking out the quieter man. Ignis and Tony both needed friends, but Raven was willing to bet most were finding Tony far more easy to locate and commiserate with. Add to that how close Ignis played things to himself, and Raven felt he should be her priority at the moment.

[Egret 22-23--Closed to Madoka, after talking to Ignis]

Besides the two men involved, Raven knew one person who would be devastated by this break-up and have no clue how to deal with her feelings on it. Or what to do now. Thankfully they were room-mates, so hopefully it wouldn't be difficult to find Madoka. It would be awkward, but Raven was prepared for that--and the other girl was, perhaps, her closest friend among the other passengers. Raven knew Madoka would need a friend now, and badly.

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"No Raven." Ignis said softly, opening the door wider. "Please do come in, I'm alright for your company." Going over and over the argument and mentally hearing the tone was just driving him crazy. None of the others had sought him out but they knew something was wrong when they looked at him he was sure. Or so it felt.

Gently he took the teacup and moved out of Raven's way so she could really see it was alright to come and visit with him. It was really touching that she thought to come all this way and check on him and briefly he wondered..but then she must've found out.

It wasn't anything he was willing to openly discuss with just anyone, he hurt differently and always sought to appear to be in control and unruffled by whatever was going on.

Raven did step in finally, hoping he'd take her words to heart though. Moving to take a seat, she was quiet for a little bit until they were both settled safely in the space. Where they couldn't be interrupted unless someone knocked, like she had.

"I know what it's like, probably better than most, how it feels to have to stay in control of your emotions at all times. I've had to train to do that myself, since I was very young--since my powers react to my emotions." Raven had a point in sharing and speaking of that subject, voice soft but with honest concern in the tone. "You can talk and vent, or let go, or whatever you need right now, Ignis--and I won't judge. You don't have to hide it, pretend everything is fine."

Moving to pull her cowl down, and to meet his eyes. No powers needed, just empathy in her gaze and care and worry for him. "So, how are you?"

Green eyes lifted from the coffee cup that Ignis had wrapped his gloved hands around as if it were an anchor. Ever since that fight he'd been wearing his gloves and it was a constant reminder of how his life had suddenly changed in the blink of an eye.

His gaze steadily met hers and he nodded slowly. He'd been training all his life too because all of his focus had gone to taking care of a solemn young lad with eyes that spoke all by themselves. No one regarded him as much other than the caretaker, the chamberlain and all the other hats he'd worn. He smiled, and tried that much for Raven's sake. And all the hurt came rushing back at him. It was an inward prison he'd never be able to get rid of by himself. Only one person could free him from this cage and he didn't know if that would ever come to pass. The pain of watching the other man turn his back and walk away was one he didn't know how to get over.

The advisor shook his head, feeling the tears well up though he was pushing them back as much as he could. Fixing his gaze back on the cup, he knew it was no use lying to Raven and Ignis damn well knew that. So there was sadness mixed with a soft tone. "I'm not fine at all. But..if I might..ask a favour.."

There were tears in his eyes now and he fought not to cry. "Please watch over Tony." Since the older man would probably rather burn himself out than see Ignis again.

Giving a slow blink, Raven was careful as she engulfed his mug in dark-energy (to steady it), before getting up and moving over to hug him. It was awkward, as she wasn't really much of a hugger. But it wasn't for her, it was for him.

"You're both my friends, so I was going to already. But I knew you'd be suffering alone and trying to hide it." Softening her voice. "You can cry, and you don't have to be strong or hold it back around me, Ignis Scientia."

Ignis watched the dark energy surround his cup and he couldn't figure out why Raven was doing that. She then moved and for some reason he thought she was going to leave, but then her arms enfolded him and he was surprised. She definitely wasn't the hugging type so somehow he felt really honoured.

Humbled by her words, his grip slightly tightened. He couldn't even bring himself to say the thank you that was so rightly deserved as a few tears traitorously slipped silently down.

She was tense, but more because of the awkwardness--she wasn't used to being the one giving hugs. The hug remained though, Raven sighing quietly in weariness. For him and for herself. She'd hold this as long as needed, for him to cry and grieve if he wanted.

This hurt on a soul level. This would be the kind of hurt that it would be to lose Noct since he had been raised alongside the king. He had no idea if he could recover from this, and didn't want to spend much time thinking about that.

Finally, Ignis got something of a grip on himself and pulled back, trying to give her space since this really wasn't Raven's thing. "Thank you..for everything you've done." The advisor couldn't verbalize it but he was also thanking her in regards to the time where she helped Tony on the platform with his attack.

Raven's signs of upset-distress were more subtle, as she hurt too for her friends. Worrying over them, but forced to keep as much control over her emotions as she could. While sensing just how much this hurt said friends...

It wasn't a surprise hopefully when one of the lights in the quiet cabin flickered, turned off, then brightened to the point of blinding and exploded with a crackle of glass. "...sorry." She retightened her control on her emotions, while Ignis pulled himself together and pulled back.

Pulling her cowl back up, and she shook her head. "No thanks needed. You're my friend, Ignis."

Ignis' attention was arrested at the flickering of lights and with the exploding glass. His first thought was to protect Raven from whatever was going on and looked at her when she apologized.

"You..did this?" There was no blame or anger, just a scholar's curiousity and it gave him something to focus on other than how hurt and distraught he was. He didn't know what to do or what to think, but he would let her explain, but only if she cared to.

In the meantime it seemed she was putting her cowl back up and somehow it bothered him to try and figure out why. But he tried a smile which was failing and he shook his head. "You've been the first to reach out to me. I owe you at least the thank you."

She wasn't leaving though, the cowl going back up was another way of her re-centering and controlling herself. "You don't owe me anything. Friends do this, or so I've been taught." There might be a hint of smile. Then a breath, and she's sitting back down. "Sorry about the light. My....powers react to my emotions." How best to explain, b/c she knew that alone wouldn't satisfy his scholarly side.

"My friend, Starfire--the alien princess? There was a time, when we switched bodies--not by choice--but thanks to a bad guy messing with our souls. He was trying to imprison us all in puppets. He got the boys. But....Starfire had trouble adjusting to my abilities and body, and I had trouble adjusting to hers."

It was as good a lead in as any. "For her, flight is easy--she just needs to let her feel the boundless joy and be weightless. For me, I...have to be in complete control, or else my flying is uncontrolled. At one point, while we were trying to free the others, she used my powers to break a lock. Calm and controlled." A pause. "But in her excitement at succeeding, she let that control go, and the entire door was ripped off thanks to the lack of control over my powers."

Ducking her head a bit, Raven at least sounded amused with her next statement. "I never did manage to 'fly' while in her body."

He smiled, thinking of the king and the boys from the Crownsguard. They hadn't come to see him but then he'd been pretty elusive because he didn't know what to say and he had no defense. Of course he bore none of them any ill will due to it, this situation wasn't their problem. It was his, Ignis had caused it and he would have to figure out a plan of action to fix it.

"You've no need to apologize." It was all he could think to say at a time like this. But then Raven launched into the tale about her friend and he listened. There was a slight smile at hearing about Starfire because she sounded a little like Noct. Or at least the accidental breaking of something due to his joy would be a similar thing at any rate.

"In that case, I suppose I wouldn't have been able to fly either."

"I think you'd pick it up, actually. You do know when and how to let yourself feel emotions. I've had to learn it the hard way a lot of times." She didn't mean to sound slightly bitter there, but it still came across in the deadpan tones.

Ironic, in a way; the Empath wasn't allowed to really 'feel' her own emotions without worrying about her powers going out of control.

"...but that's part of why I'm so calm all the time. I *have* to be. But I understand how hard it is, and if you need someone you can let your guard down around--I'm willing to help if I can."

"I appreciate your faith in me." And really, Ignis meant that. Raven was really sweet to think that he'd get something he would consider difficult. The most he could do was back flips and leap into the air. However, he didn't remain there and he came right back down afterwards.

There she went again, reaching out and being the soul of kindness to him. He could only smile and lower his head a little in a semi apologetic way. Swallowing his own emotions had become his m.o. since he was young, after all, there was a prince to look after who was far more important than he was and he was tasked with keeping the young boy out of trouble and alive. Ignis had always considered himself second if even that to the younger royal as he had no royal blood in him at all.

All he could do was raise his gaze and look at her. "Thank you Raven."

She shook her head, with a small smile. Not trying to trivialize anything, but more trying once again to make it clear he didn't need to thank her. "You're welcome anyway." With a bit more of a hint of smile.

He tried to smile back and wondered if it came across as one with all that was going on. Ignis was so grateful to her, he just didn't have the words to properly express that right at the moment.

The blondish head shook as he struggled to regain some sense of control over his emotions which at the moment could be described as scattered at best.

"I do believe that smile isn't something you give out so casually. And I'm happy to see it." At least one of them could really smile.

His attempt at the smile was what mattered, and his comment made her chuckle slightly. "I assure you, I do have the ability. Occasionally I've been known to smirk, or very very rarely--to grin. Usually you should worry if you see me doing either." It's a gentle tease, and she's not expecting anywhere near his usual response.

"Besides the obvious, how can I help? I can let you be now, if you want--or I can stick around and just offer quiet company."

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Egret 22---Closed Log to Ignis and to Madoka

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She'll get to the hug, don't worry.

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