Allen couldn't help but feel a little bit frustrated. He understood the seriousness of the whole situation, but there was so much he didn't know about, connections he didn't quite understand that he honestly didn't know how to go about anything with it.

"I know this is serious and I'm not relying on hope. I have to rely on myself most of the time. I did once have something in place for if I couldn't handle it, but I would rather not have to use that idea ever." There was a reason he was perfectly okay with Kanda doing the plan than those he considered close to. he felt like he couldn't do that to them.

Kanda had already stabbed him once before... so it was different. He could at least trust that he would be able to do it.