Really big Luggage

[xue_yang]

Who: Xue Yang and OTA
Where: Luggage
When: Imagination 14
What: Coming from from the dead after the mission
Warnings: Discussions about Death




Xue Yang isn't afraid of dying when it is permanent, but knowing that he would just pop right back up on the train made it even easier. At least he was able to get a good final blow on the jerks that were having their way with everyone from the train. So when he pops open the suitcase he has found himself inside of, he really isn't bothered by the fact that he died on the battlefield. Is there any better way to go?

He stretches his arms up, trying to work the stiffness from his body and checking to see if any of his wounds from the fight are still going to bother him. Even though he died, he hardly expected to come back completely healed. Perhaps this is the way to do things. No real recovery time. Just back to normal! He does feel a little soreness where the shrapnel had gone in so he will have to make sure there is nothing remaining there. But his spiritual energy is back and feels fairly good considering...

There might be a small pout as he realizes that his clothing unfortunately still has the blood stains and the damage it sustained while out on the planet. He had given up precious candy for these robes. Perhaps he can find someone who will take care of it.

He pushes himself up and out of the suitcase and looks around the luggage car. He really has only been in here a couple times. He doesn't generally order things and this is his first time dying on the train. It's a curious place to wake up in. He starts towards the exit of the car. Might as well continue with his day.


[ooc: feel free to encounter him in the luggage car, or in the hall heading back to his room.]

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[xue_yang]

"I probably will rest for awhile longer and enjoy my new room." He wonders what his old roommates will think of the move, and what his new ones will think as well. Considering he has a bit of a rep on the train that isn't the best, and now might be even more unfortunate depending on what people hear about the battle.

"I'll make sure to sleep with my present every night." He holds up the little fox and looks at it again. He's never really had a toy before. It is interesting that Xingchen is the first person to give him candy and now a gift like this.

[stardustofdawn]

"If this is every night, at least you know I'm near and it almost feels like home back in Yi City." It's maybe unfortunate that he lets him rest here considering he's blind, which isn't a good match considering his rep. It will have people talking and thinking, but out of all the people, Xingchen knows him best.

It's the first, and he's hoping a gift and a new place to stay will encourage him.

He can hear the happiness in his voice, it's almost cute somehow. "Mm. Be good or else the train might change its mind. I heard it's sentient, so I wonder..." He trails off, feeling his heart flutter. "I wonder if it heard my prayer for you somehow."

[xue_yang]

"Back before I ruined everything." At least he admits that he did. He understands what he did wrong and accepts it. He can't change it so accepting is all he can do.

"You said a prayer for me, Daozhang?" He tilts his head as he looks at him. Curious as to whether he wished him to come back.

[stardustofdawn]

"Xue Yang, that's our past. I thought about it. I wasn't strong enough to stand up for myself or to save Song Lan, A-Qing, or to stop you. That's my deepest regret. If there is anyone to blame, it should be me." He sighs.

How curious is he for wishing him back? "I did. Didn't you get my message..?"

[xue_yang]

"You mean the one on this thing?" He pulls out the little device and pushes the play button. Xingchen's voice comes out of it and he grins. "I definitely got it, daozhang. I'm still waiting for my cake." He is saving the message so he can listen to it whenever he wants.

[stardustofdawn]

Xingchen pouts, feeling a sense of confusion and his cheeks flushed hearing his voice, admitting he has a outburst over him.

With a quiet huff, “You kept it? You really are a cheeky imp. Do you realize that I’m deeply upset? When you died, I thought your body is left on the planet and I already boarded the train. I don’t want anyone left behind including you.”

With a nod, admitting his surrender. “But you returned so I’ll keep my promise to make you that cake.”

A pause, a beat. His heart racing as another emotion rise. “I’m glad you returned. Despite what everyone said about you, I don’t care. I’m glad you’re back A-Yang.”

So turning to him, barely a whisper, expecting, wanting and desiring. Feelings he doesn’t want and shouldn’t have for this wicked gremlin of a man. “So if you want, you can kiss me. But only if you miss me a lot. If it’s little bit or if you just care, then you can hold me instead.”

[xue_yang]

Xue Yang stares at him in surprise. He never would have expected that turn of events. He feels his heart beat start to race at what the man says. So much has changed for them since Xingchen arrived on the train but he had been content to simply be at the man's side. He didn't really think he would care about him in such a way after everything he had done.

He sets the doll next to him on the bed and reaches out to place a hand on either side of Xingchen's face. "Really daozhang? That's really what you want?" He doesn't want the man to change his mind, or to push him away if he really does go in to kiss him. But his hold on the man's face is gentle so if Xingchen decides to pull away then he can do so.

[stardustofdawn]

Xingchen could only see darkness, but there is something comforting in the darkness and his touch. It's accepting and comforting. Through his touch, maybe the other man has truly see the light of his mistakes and if he does, so is he. So he doesn't pull away.

"There's no going back. I heard there's some children crying on the platform today, because a loved one has gone home. I was thinking that's how you felt and I'm beginning to understand. It's lonely and heart-aching." There is sadness and he refuses to cry, admitting the mistake he's going to commit, "Maybe Song Lan can forgive me. And you wouldn't blame me anymore. Should one of us go to the platform..." A pause. "But I have no plan to do so...I can only hope we meet again in the next life."

Ah, that's depressing, given their past. "So, sure. I want it and I want you too. We have a lot of work to do, but if we work together, maybe we can rebuilt the future if you want one with me."

[xue_yang]

Xue Yang wants to do it. He wants to kiss Xingchen and let all the feelings that have been building up over the last few years to finally be released. But he also knows that they haven't had a lot of time and if he makes a mistake that it could shatter all the progress he has made.

His hands drop down and he wraps them around Xingchen, drawing him into a hug. Holding him tightly but not so much that the man might want to push away.

"Then what I want is to wait. I want it to be the perfect moment, daozhang. Because I want to kiss you more then anything..but that's also why I want it to be the right moment."

Waking up in his room, coming back to the train after dying..the pain that caused Xingchen..this is now the right time. It's the shock of almost losing someone that is driving his desires and that isn't what Xue Yang wants. He wants to prove he isn't going anywhere.

[stardustofdawn]

If there is any doubt, it slowly melted away. Feeling the hug, he didn't push him away. He finally felt his sincerity. It's not perfect, but it will do. He hugs him back. His body felt solid, warm, strong, but he felt him distant, that he's trying to reach.

This is the validation he needs that he felt relieved. "So you do care about me, miss me, and want me. That's what I wanted to know."

Quietly, he nuzzles on his shoulder and on his hair. "Xue Yang, I'm blind. I can wait here all day, not going anywhere, and I will not do my chores not until you kiss me because more than anything, that's what I want you to do. Kiss me and make me do nothing but stay here."

[xue_yang]

Xue Yang laughs softly, "You won't leave here or do your chores until I kiss you? Then what if I refuse to do so just so you will stay in here with me always?"

He is very capable of playing that game just to see if Xingchen will follow through with that statement. He continues to hold him, happy to finally be able to do so.

[stardustofdawn]

With a nod, he realized he's playing. It could take a while to get used to. "Not always. On this train, people expect you to work hard. I have to pull my weight too."

He realized, maybe he's afraid the train will separate them or he'll be going away. In that case, he'll make sure he's behave so he could stay here with him. He embraces him back, arms wrapped around his mid-section, feeling the fragility of their bond, being slowly mended.

"So, you have to work hard, A-Yang? For me? But in all seriousness, yes, I will stay with you. Or at least, try."

[xue_yang]

"I don't like the chores on the train and there are other people that are better at them." Cooking, cleaning? Not his best skills. He'll leave that kind of thing to others. There are plenty of people on the train that other people can pull his part of the work.

"I'll work hard on the missions to make up for my time on the train." He prefers when he is off the train. Those kinds of tasks are ones he is generally good at and doesn't mind doing.

[stardustofdawn]

For some reason, he's not surprised to hear he doesn't like chores. But it won't stop him to try to find a way to motivate him to do better and have someone like himself to look forward to.

"Those missions are dangerous. So do you prefer a life like a soldier? A soldier's life has no fear of dying." Unlike himself, he's a pacifist and prefer peace and helping people.

[xue_yang]

"I'm not afraid of dying. I've died twice already. And here we just come back. I don't want to actively pursue death, but if it happens then clearly it means I wasn't strong enough. I'll have to make sure to be better the next mission."

He wouldn't call himself a soldier. He just likes fighting and killing. A solider does so with a purpose, or fighting for something. He fights because he wants to.

[stardustofdawn]

"You shouldn't actively pursue death. Dying so many times, I think can damage your spirit and your heart right here." By right here, he meant he puts a hand on his chest above on his heart.

"You're strong enough. You don't have to prove it. Consider a peaceful path of no killing or violence." A thoughtful silence, "If you want a future with me, then think about it."

Being blind, he can only guess where his lips are. So tilting his head, closing the distance, and leaning in, he kisses him. Ah, he caught the corner of his lips, so leaning further, he finally caught his lips fully and kisses him for real.

[xue_yang]

Xue Yang notices him leaning closer and his eyes widen. Xingchen had asked him to kiss him, but now he is taking the initiative. It's rather endearing when the other kisses the corner of his mouth, but then he corrects it and it lights a fire inside Xue Yang.

He kisses him back lightly at first but then can't resist pressing a little more enthusiastically into it. He puts his arms around the other man, holding him close but not so tightly that Xingchen can't escape if he wants to.

[stardustofdawn]

He's surprised by his enthusiasm, but he finds himself kissing him back, remembering his sweet charming self back in the home they shared. He wondered why did he stay? He could have moved on to the next town if he wanted to. Though he felt guilty for the murders he did, he felt he's fully to blame.

He doesn't pull away and kisses him fully. When he needs to break for air, he relaxes and stays in his arms.

[xue_yang]

Xue Yang never thought he would ever see this day. Not only did Xingchen want to kiss him, but he actually initiated it. Of course that was partially Xue Yang's fault since he teased him about not doing so that he would stay with him. But now his teasing is invalid.

He keeps his arms wrapped around him and rests his head on the taller man's shoulder.

"Does this mean I have to let you go to do chores?"

[stardustofdawn]

He holds him in his arms and lightly stroke his back. Through his hugs, he said much that he misses him.

"Eventually I will, but I figured you won't let me go at least for a while. Unless you want me to stay here for a little longer?"

[xue_yang]

"I won't make you stay if you want to go, but if you stay I'm going to keep holding you so you better not get tired of it."

He grins as he holds him just a little tighter to prove his point.

[stardustofdawn]

With his arms, he squeezed back, because he felt he needs this, to confirm this is what he wanted.

"Then I'll stay. Only because I want to and you wanted me to. I'm not tired as long as I bring you peace. We have plenty of time." He murmured.

Then quietly, "You were hurt, weren't you?"

[xue_yang]

"Hurt by what? During the mission?" He doesn't really understand what Xingchen is asking of him since he already knows that he died during it. But he doesn't make any move to let him go. He's never really been hugged in any way like this and it's nice. He doesn't want to let go.

[stardustofdawn]

It does feel nice to hold him, so for him, it's a chance for him to talk about what happened. So, trying to be comfortable, he's going to hold him and talk to him in a comforting way.

With a thoughtful look, "During the mission. No one tells me of anything during the evacuation other than Glorfindel, so I managed to evacuate at the last minute. I was thinking of going to look for you, but I decided to wait for you. Later on, when I boarded Wei Wuxian felt he failed to help you, which I think isn't the case. Other than that, I don't know what else happened to you. So, I thought you were hurt."

[xue_yang]

"I was beaten. Hit by shrapnel in an explosion, attacked by whatever they call the weapons they use, and then exhausted my spiritual power as I was taking down one of the enemies. But I held my own in the fight despite not being used to the weapons I was against."

He hopes he doesn't have to deal with robots ever again. They were frustrating and a little boring. The big ones were tough but they were still less exciting then fighting a human.